If a woman knew that her man didn’t do what he did for her out of unconditional love but conditional love would that cause distrust, distance and her to doubt his love?
For example. Putting a condition on one’s own actions is conditional love. A condition must be met by the husband in order for her to show love. Or a condition must be met by the wife in order for the husband to show love. Or conditional love could also be when you do a supposed loving act expecting something in return.
Like him cleaning so that he ultimately could get what he wants to the exclusion of her. Making himself and his desires more important than hers. Rather than doing good for the joy and sake of doing good. Benevolent love is doing good. Benevolent love is free and unconditional.
Like she got the idea that he only cleaned the house so that they could have sex, then he would be doing an outwardly loving act (which really is not pure love for his motives are selfish) in exchange for something he desired (to use her in bed to please himself).
Rather than him cleaning the house out of pure love. She comes home is happy, his loving action draws her closer. They make holy and true love. His desire in the marriage bed is to please her even if he doesn’t get what he wants. His ultimate goal is not himself but her. What would a man like this say and do that would prove his true love? Or what would a man say and do that would give her the idea that he only does good for his benefit?
This goes for anything and everything. Love is unconditional so don’t but conditions on your actions and don’t selfishly expect something from your actions. Love is priceless. If someone were to try to give everything they had in exchange for a loving action they and the offer would be utterly scorned.
The point is that true loving actions bring each other closer. Whereas a fake love, an outward action without the inner beauty of a right selfless motive, would bring distance, pain and separation in the relationship.
I have met people that made agreements before marriage. The man giving, money and vacations to the woman and the woman giving sex. She was like a legal prostitute. These unions work so long as each on does their part. Buying love. Rather buying the actions of love without either one having the true feeling.
In True Love the man gives all of himself freely to the wife, then spends the rest of his life proving his love. She freely gives herself to him, then spends the rest of her life proving her love. It is not like he gives himself to her if she will give herself to him, for this is an exchange. But love is free, unconditional and priceless. Love unites.
Imagine a man who freely gave himself all the time and, in all aspects. He would be the example. Out of a burning flame in his heart he is compelled to give himself to her, for her good and catch any foxes that may ruin their blossoming relationship. Then over the course of time, guided by wisdom and motivated by love he drew her closer with the skill of a gazelle on mountain tops. His example of giving himself is beautiful. She see’s the rightness and beauty of it and gives herself completely to him. Not only in intention but in real life and in every way she freely gives herself, thus following his example. I do strongly believe that the man is the leader in the relationship. Which primarily means that he leads by example. His shepherds her heart closer to his by freely giving himself, his time, his heart, his feelings, his thoughts, his money, his attention, as leader, provider, lover, friend etc. In this way she see’s a reflected glory of God in face of her husband. His loving actions to her are so that the glory and beauty of God can be seen in the things he does. Part of that beauty of God is in the fact that God is Benevolent and freely gives to the righteous and unrighteous. It is in His nature to do so. So, when free love is on display, then God is glorified. The nature of God is put on display in the type of Christ doing a loving action.
So this whole blog I have these verses in mind engraved on my heart.
The progression of her heart as it got closer to his in these words.
“My beloved is mine, and I am my beloved’s.” Solomon’s song of songs 2:16. Then after her seeing him give himself to her over and over and over again in every way then she doesn’t give herself to him because he gave himself to her but primarily because of the beauty she sees in the actions. For the same of putting on display moral beauty. Not like she loves him back in exchange because he did things for her, but she learns to freely give herself to him. When this reality hits her life and she is actually giving herself to him, she then reverses the statement and lets us know the truth as to where she and her heart are in relation to him. The “I am my beloved’s” at their engagement is a new reality and promise that hasn’t been fulfilled yet. But sometime after being married she learned to give herself to him and she kept her promise. She says,
“I am my beloved’s, and my beloved is mine.” Song 6:10 Notice she puts “I am my beloved’s” first.
So now by the end of Chapter 6 he is freely and joyfully giving himself to her, she is giving herself to him. The relationship is near perfect. They live like this sharing the Name of God with Gentile nations as Old Testament missionaries come back to Jerusalem. Throughout the whole time she learned to never doubt his selfless love to her as she gave herself to him in every way. It is as if it was her being able to freely give herself to him over and over again was what helped her not doubt his actions towards her. (I wonder if our disobedience to God triggers our doubt of His love?). She is absolutely happy beyond words! She promised to give herself to him, she proved it and kept going then with the sweetest and most holy flame of love in her heart she rejoices with joy unspeakable and a peace that passes her understanding, “I am my beloved’s, and his desire is for me!” Song 7:10
Doubting his love to her was just part of the relationship. Yet as he gave himself freely to her and she to him to the point where there was no selfishness in the relationship, her doubting of his love went away. In this way love casts out fear or doubt. 1 John 4.
His desire was always for her, but it needed time in their relationship to manifest itself in greater heights, depths, lengths and breadths. He was always jealous for her good. Her good primarily being her growing moral beauty. Her growing love to God and others. Her greatest good was for her to have more love in her heart so with burning zeal in his heart for love is a flame above all others he led by example! He primarily focused on his love first! We sometimes say it “When there is one finger pointed at the spouse there are 3 pointed at me.” Meaning if the guy makes sure he is freely loving over and over and over again. Forgiving, giving, being patient, wise Biblical leadership, leading by example, wooing her closer, and on and on. If he looked to himself first and if he were a Christian man, then he would know that change in the bride comes when beholding the beauty of God in their actions. Why does he know this? Because he himself has noticed himself change as he saw the moral beauty of Jesus, which consists in love to God at the cross. Jesus showed His love to the Father by obeying Him. The Father wanted the Son to die for His Bride and prove His love to her in giving Himself to her in the greatest act of love ever! No greater love does someone have than this!! In a delightful beholding of holy love there is a change of heart from one level of glory to another.
2 Cor. 3:18 NASB 1995
“But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as from the Lord, the Spirit.”
Her transformation was due to her seeing and experiencing God’s love through her union with a type of Jesus Christ (every husband is a type of Jesus Christ, a little Christ).
Her transformation from being on fire for him, to committing to him to actually being in a place where her will is not her own and her heart is one with his and eventually never doubting his love, is due to being united to a type of Jesus Christ that loved her over and over again!
If she knew his selfish motives, then she would know that her giving herself to him would have a value on it. A value from his perspective. I do this and she will do that for me. I do this and I get that in exchange. Working for love, rather than love working. Love works selflessly. You have a wrong idea of love if you think love can be bought or that something could be given in exchange for it!
“If someone were to give their whole livelihood to be loved, the offer would be utterly scorned.” Solomon’s song of Songs 8:7
It is loves characteristics that brought about such a strict union and sweet harmony in the relationship. The fact that they loved each other with out conditions but freely gave all of themselves to each other is absolutely beautiful!
We are to think of things!
“whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is [a]lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, [b]dwell on these things.” Phil. 4:8
Today, all day of love. A feeling that empowers to give. Think about two people in marriage freely giving themselves to each other. This is beautiful! The idea of love in action delighted in will transform you, ignite a flame from a spark. Think of Jesus freely giving Himself. His bride freely giving herself. All of themselves. Out of love. A feeling that compelled them to give themselves freely and unconditionally to each other. The husband leading by example, her seeing the beauty of his love and not out of exchange but also freely loving him as well. I didn’t say “she love him back” because that may sound like she only reciprocates love if she receives love.
True, the Bride of Jesus will receive rewards for her actions that are done in Christ. But she does those actions freely and unconditionally. Thinking the reward is by God’s grace or undeserved favor.
selfishness is a flame that burns in many hearts that have not the flame above all others in it. Love is a flame above selfishness. More powerful. Love casts out selfishness but puts the happiness of the object of its affection first before self.
Saved in 2000 at age 27. Nearly immediately I fell in love with the Song and grew very fast the first two years memorizing large portions of scripture purifying my mind the started chewing on meat to soon and struggled for 12 years and Christ has me on track like always but I just took the long way around and now I love leading others closer to Christ by seeing His love reflected in Solomons love for an enemy slave girl.
I have experienced God's love to me in the Song in ways that words can't express. There are many portion of the Word where she experiences extra ordinary outpouring of the Holy Spirit of God. If you have a burning desire for a close intimate relationship with God by experiencing His Love to you over and over again at greater and greater heights, depths, lengths and breaths then The Song of Songs is where you need to be.
I can help you with this process of Growing in the experience of God's love. As of 7-23-16 I have experienced everything prior to chapter 8. The Song of Song is progressive in experience. Meaning that if you are mature then you can experience the joys and extraordinary outpourings of God's Love shed abroad in your heart.
If you are not so mature then the delights in the first chapter of the Song will satisfy your thirst for experiencing the Love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Many Christian are living in sin because they do not know how to experience God's love and get hooked on Loving Him. It feels good to be loved and to love Him. His burden is not heavy and His yoke is light, Jesus said in Matt. 10:28
I believe God wants to use me to help beautify His Bride through the Song of Solomon.
If you see the book literally you will not understand nor grasp the Love God has for you. If you see the book and the verses in it relating to Christ's love to you then I would love to show you how to experience this Love to the fullest. I will pray for you daily and guide you every step of the way.
16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
I grew up going to church but was a hypocrite. I lived my life how I chose but went to church on Sunday because my family went.
Mom and Dad divorced when I was about 5.
About this time I was sexually abused by "Bob" a made up name. This incident changed my life for the worst. I had no clue how to deal with it.
As I got older I grew in my hatred for Bob. I didn't blame anyone of my family because I was to young to know any better. Some of what happened during the abuse was in a bathroom. So overtime I would use the bathroom and look at my private parts that night would replay in my mind. My hatred for Bob would continue to grow each time.
Now I know this only happened to me one night. I can't image the pain other's go through who have had this happen to them over and over. Even as I write this now I cry with many tears for those hurting. God love you even though you may not know it or feel it. Go to Him in your time of need.
I was a really bad teenager. I only cared about myself and not even my family. I always came first in my mind. Even at the expense of hurting others. I was growing in my hatred for God by now.
I was going to church and was learned that God was in control. I thought well, if God was in control then He must have let me be sexually abused. I didn't understand this, How could a good and loving God allow this. I hated Him for it. My hatred for Bob grew as well. I was still using the bathroom and memories kept coming back. My heart grew even harder for Bob and God. As far as I was concerned God would have nothing to do with my life so I lived even worse. I thought I would be in jail or dead and I really didn't care, I thought it could be much worse than reliving your painful past over and over again. Little did I know that God's plan later would be to use these events to give me a burning passion for the closest most intimate love relationship with Himself through Christ mainly through the love poem in the Song of Songs in the Bible.
I remember hating Bob so much that the only thing that would relieve my pain was actually thinking he would suffer forever for what he did. I grew so much in my hatred for him that I had to continue to think that he would get even worse than what I imaged before. After some time I would only be relieved of hatred for him unless I thought he would burn in a hotter and hotter hell for all the suffering he put me through.
I never told my mom or family what happened, although I think some of them knew something had happened.
I grew up quite rebellious and even went to jail at the age of 20. I was living the fast life pursuing all my sinful desires and wanting more. It never seemed to be enough. I was quite happy in my sin but I just wanted more of it.
I lived life thinking I would die at a young age, riding motorcycle and living on the edge put me in the hospital many times and I should have been dead.
California at age 26.
I moved to California for a job opportunity at the age of 27. While trying to figure out what radio stations to program in my car, I ran across a RC Sproul talking about "people who have the faith that saves and people who only say that have faith" only the people who have the faith that saves will go to heaven. I thought "I don't think I have the faith that saves because my life was so bad." I searched the scriptures to try to get this faith. I found a church and thought people there could help me get this faith that saves. All along God kept showing me how sinful I was and that I deserved punishment from Him for living my life hating Him.
One weekend I read Matthew, Mark, Luke and John desperately trying to find out how to get this faith that saves. By now I knew that if you had the faith that saves that Jesus would be saving you from a life of sin. I still liked my sin and Jesus sure wasn't saving me from a life of sin, so I rightly concluded that I didn't have the faith that saves.
By the time I got to John, I saw "believe" everywhere. John 3:16 and other verses and wow the whole book was written so that you may believe. John 20:31 "these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name." So at night I would pray "I believe Jesus died for me, I believe, I believe. This was just an intellectual belief. I knew that in history and the Bible that Jesus died for everyone, so I believed it. But this belief did not change my life.
I would go on night after night saying the same prayer only to wake up the next day wanting to fulfill my sinful desires. The prayer wasn't working so I started to word it different each time hoping some prayer would work. After about 2 weeks of this I was fed up with it all, nothing was happening. I still was living in my sin and wanted more of it. A Christian hates their sin and does something about it, and certainly they don't continue to make plans to sin. The prayers weren't working so I gave up. I thought to myself "God, I tried with all my might, I searched the Scriptures, went to church, read the Bible and prayed all to no avail. If Im going to be saved your going to have to do it because I tried."
So I quit praying but still the Bible kept calling me so I read more. 3 Days later I was laying in a tanning bed and God convicted me really hard that I had offended Him by the life I was living. I was so scared of God, where could I run. You can't hide from God. It seemed like forever that I was under these terrors of being punished by a Holy Angry God. This lasted about 10 minutes then this is how I understood it. God let me understand that all that anger that He had for me for all my sin should come my way but He had poured that anger out on Jesus 2,000 years ago. I immediately started weeping an couldn't stop for about 20 minutes. All the sins that I could think of I confessed for that 20 minutes one after another after another, I was so sorrowful and grieved it physically hurt inside.
After I stopped crying I thought that was the weirdest thing that ever happened. I walked out of the tanning salon and stood outside and everything seemed so beautiful, the tree's, the birds, even the air seemed pleasant. Now I was really wondering what was going on.
I pondered all of this as I drove to work that day. I brought my Bible to work and was thinking what am I doing, I want to take my Bible to work so I can read it. As soon as I got to work I started reading my Bible. I couldn't believe what I was reading!! It all was so wonderful. It felt so good to just read my Bible. My client showed up and as I was training them the only thing I could think about was getting back to my Bible. I read all night and slept about 2 hours and was reading again.
I had sinful things in my apartment and I rounded everything evil up and threw it in the garbage. It was weird I was thinking but it felt good so I left it all in the garbage. I called my girlfriend to break it up and she thought I had another girl, I said no, I just think this is wrong we shouldn't be sleeping together. She didn't understand so I told her I was a Christian now and she still thought I had another girlfriend. She said "Im glad your a Christian, so am I" I thought to myself, "I have a strong conviction that sleeping together is wrong and she thought it was okay" I wondered how she could think that. Anyway we broke up.
I kept reading my bible and repenting, there was so much to repent of and I had lived a very sinful life. I was a thief for some part of my life and all the people I stole from kept coming to mind. I owed so much money. I was instantly in debt about $80,000. As I could I paid them back. As of 7-18-2016 I still owe about $25,000 but it sure is a joy to be paying them back.
The first week of being saved a car just about ran me over, they hit me but I wasn't hurt at all. The guy in the car felt so bad. I just looked at him and said "God bless you and have a great day, I am okay" smiled at him and moved on. Now I was really wondering what was going on because I normally would have cussed him out left and right and instead of cussing I blessed him. That was so weird. But again it felt good. I learned to do good by what my conscience told me was good and that it felt good. I got hooked on this feeling good by doing good and did it more often.
About two weeks after being saved I thought of Bob. I immediately prayed for him, something like "Lord help him.." then I stopped praying and said out loud "What am I doing?" I'm praying for a man that I hated my whole life, but it feels good and right, so I did it again. I stopped again midway in the prayer and started pacing around. I was trying to make sense of what was going on and couldn't figure it out. But again it made me happy to pray for him so I did. Bob would often come to mind when I went to the bathroom and each time I would pray for Him. The more I did this the less weird it got. And the greater my love grew for him.
I started memorizing large portions of scripture and this was wonderful because it felt like the words were cleaning my mind and as Proverbs 2:10 "For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul." I wanted more and more of this pleasantness. So I memorized even more and the joy got more and more.
Then this life changing advice came:
A friend from church told me to find a book of the Bible and really understand it. Read through the Bible and pick one and read it over and over and study it and really get it. So I started in Genesis and read through. When I got to Proverbs I really liked it so I thought that would be the book. I started by memorizing all of Proverbs chapter 3. After that I thought maybe there is a better book than Proverbs. So I read on. Then I came to Song of Solomon. I read it with quite some confusion. It wasn't as good as the other books, I didn't know why. So I bought a commentary on it. George Burrowes commentary on the Song of Solomon.
In the commentary I found that George and other saw the book as illustrating God's love to the Church. And not only illustrating it but displaying the Love of Christ better than any other book. This caught my attention big time, because I was having a burning desire for a closer relationship with God and desperately learning about His Love so that I could Love God. You see I had hated Him for so long that God used that old hard heart to spur me on in loving Him. I so much did not want to hate God anymore that I was on fire to learn to Love Him as much and as fast as possible. So here was a book that would help me do that. So I landed on the Song of Solomon. I committed to learning as much of this book as possible.
I memorized the first chapter and would repeat it often throughout the day. I didn't know much of what I was repeating but it sure made me happier and on fire for God. I grew so fast repeating the first chapter over and over again all day, like a dozen times a day at least. It felt so good and I never found any other book that caused me to weep so much. I would often weep everyday just reading it. I was to immature to know what was going on. Even though it hurt to weep so much, I felt like my heart was being cleansed from the filth that was in it by repeating it over and over again so I did. As I read the commentary I understood more and more. What God was doing in me through the Song was greater and faster than any other portion of Scripture so I tended to stay there often. I was so excited about God that I thought it funny that other's in church weren't the same way. Some where happy but it seemed most of them didn't seem to care much about God. They would talk about work, football the weather. The only thing I wanted to talk about was Jesus and God and how can I grow closer to Him.
About this time there was a mission trip to Ireland.
I started to have convictions that I should try to find Bob and witness to him. I kept praying for him but how could he be saved if he hadn't heard the Gospel that has power unto salvation. So I asked family if they had any information. Like me before, my family hated him and thought he deserved hell. After some time I got his name but no location or phone number. Either they didn't know where he was or didn't want to tell me. I prayed some more and then started to get stronger convictions to do something about finding Bob.
So I went on the internet and typed in "his name and child molestation sex offender court" thinking that some court record would have some info leading to where I may find him" I even talked to a private eye and he couldn't help. So I googled some key words and spent hours each day looking through each page. I believed it was God's will for me to witness to Bob. I wanted him to be saved. Really bad. So much so that I thought God would save Bob if I were to witness to him. So I didn't stop searching for him. I kept my computer on each day and went page by page. It took two years to go through about 15,000 pages but I found someone who matched his name in a prison for molesting his grandchildren. I wrote the prison and he wrote back. All kinds of emotions went through my body when I saw his letter from the jail. I didn't open it right away but two hours later God gave me enough courage to face my fears again and I opened the letter. He admitted to being the one who molested me. We wrote back and forth I told him I was angry before but now I was saved and that I loved him and believed God wanted me to talk to him. He read my letters over and over again. I shared the gospel in each one.
I got mad at Bob 2x. Once he said that he love me. I got really angry with him. He didn't love me. That night it was hard to love Bob, I had to call a friend to pray for me to repent, after he prayed I felt greater love for Bob. Then I wrote him back saying "I'm sorry but you can't say that you loved me. You did not love me you lusted after me." He admitted he didn't love as he should have and admitted that it was lust and sinful. Finally some conviction. Yet I only thought he was saying that because I was being nice to him. All his family had left him and he said I was the only "friend" he had.
Wether or not it was true Bob said that he had cancer in his arm and that the help the prison gives was not enough and if he had money he could see a different doctor and get help. I sent him some money and since I was in jail before I knew what it was like to be in there without money, so I sent him money.
About 4-5 months in the economy went down, it was 2008. Work was hard. I still sent him money and I had to work harder. This was a really good lesson for me because I had to "work hard for the benefit of someone who did not deserve it." This was one of the greatest blessing ever because I realized with great certainty that Jesus was in me. This is what Jesus did. Jesus worked his whole life for me and I didn't deserve it!! Christ was in me! This was one of the best feelings ever and it put me in worship for months.
Then a mission trip to Croatia.
Each time I had to leave my business and amazing as it is I was completely okay each time. I am a self employed personal trainer and it is normally absurd to just leave and start over, but each time I had enough work within 2 weeks of coming back. This is a flat out miracle. I trusted God to provide and he did. How many people can start up a business in 2 weeks. Only with the help of God. God was teaching me early on in my walk that as long as I did what He wanted me to do then I had nothing to worry about.
About 3 years saved now.
I Taught the 4 year old's at church Sunday morning for 10 years.
Left my business 2x for mission trips and God miraculously provided when I came back.
I taught 5 x a week plus held a job.
Sunday morning to the kids.
Sunday night with the 5th graders
Friday afternoons at Good News Clubs. Sponsored by Child Evangelism Fellowship.
Friday Nights with the Kids teaching through Pilgrims Progress, I did this 2x
Teaching Monday afternoons at a nursing home. I taught through the Song of Songs once then John, then Romans then back to the Song again! I love the Song of Songs.
I grew up hating God for what happened to me, and now I love Him because He first loved me. My passion is for children to grow up loving God and not hating Him.
My other passion which has become ever greater is to help others see the Love of Christ to His Church in the Song of Songs!!
I would love to help you, just let me know and I will lead you and pray for you.
God demonstrates His love to us in sending His one and only Son to suffer in our place, taking our sins upon Himself so that whoever believes they get to heaven because of what He did for us will not perish but have everlasting life.