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Breast like clusters Song 7:7

“Your stature is like a palm tree, And your breasts are like its clusters.

‘The Lord called thy name a green olive-tree, fair and of goodly fruit’ (Jer. 11:16). And we must bear much fruit; it is muchness of fruit that glorifies God: ‘if ye bear much fruit.’ The spouse’s breasts are compared to clusters of grapes, to show how fertile she was (Song of Sol. 7:7). Though the lowest degree of grace may bring salvation to you, yet it will not bring much glory to God. It was not a spark of love Christ commended in Mary, but much love; ‘she loved much’ (Luke 7:47). Thomas Watson
What is the comparison? What is similar about her breasts and the clusters of a date palm?
Solomon has in mind her breasts, the sight or shape of them, the beauty and the function or purpose.  All of which the husband is happy to take hold of and enjoy.
The shape is similar.  Roundness of the clusters and position on the tree is similar which help in the illustration.
The sight is beautiful.  He loves her breasts.  The sight of them is beautiful and captivating.  They are not deformed or unholy.
They function properly.   All the function of her breast are beautiful.  They produce milk.  They captivate his eyes.   They are a sign of her maturity.  They are wisely made by God to be attractive to the male.  7:1  She has been receiving nourishment, washing by the Word of her husband/Husband and she is growing more mature and can nourish others.  They grow with her maturity.   They are beautiful.  They captivate the eye of her husband. Proverbs 5:19  “As a loving hind and a graceful doe, Let her breasts satisfy you at all times; Be exhilarated always with her love.”
Size determines maturity.  Solomon is seeing great signs of a mature stature in his royal bride.  Her breast size serves as a good illustration of her level of maturity.  Are they not there? Are they just forming?  Is she ready for nursing?  Is she nursing and her child is growing thereby?  Degree of maturity.  Her breasts are clusters.  She has got a lot of maturity.  She is both humble, beautiful and royal from toe to head.  7:1-7:6
Now they enjoy holy communion in love.  She is happy her breasts please him.  He communicates his desire to enjoy what she has for him. 7:7-9
The clusters are symmetrical, proportionate and in harmony within themselves and the whole tree.  The tree bearing fruit is due to its connection to the tree and union with it and abiding with it. John 15.  The fruitfulness of the bride is in direct proportion to her fulfilling her role in union and communion with her husband/Husband.
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More than likely just the idea of fruitfulness is to be understood.  She is being compared to a fruitful palm tree.  Great in stature and fruitful.  Meaning she is upright/fully grown in physical stature, mature in her duties as a wife and has produced many children.  A palm tree able to produce clusters is very healthy.  The tree must be good on the inside in order to produce fruit like that.
Here we argue from the physical to the spiritual, from the idea being communicated.
The idea being communicated is that she is fruitful.  Her moral character is holy, excellent and produces fruit, particularly her breasts are fruitful.
So I will walk you through how we argue from the physical truth in the Song about  a palm tree having clusters being compare to her and her breasts.
To the Spiritual idea of Christ being happy with and complimenting the believers ability to witness and make multiple disciples or spiritual children.
Clearly this is both
1.  An illusion to her having many children like a mature palm tree has much fruit.  The fruit of her womb.  Now to apply this to the Christians relationship with Christ, we need only to ask a question or two in comparing this truth in Solomon’s marriage to his wife.  We think of our relationship with Christ.
Biblical Marriage was, is and always will be an illustration of Christ’s love to his bride. Eph. 5.   Wether it being a type or illustration in Adam and Eve, or a better type of a king of kings marrying an enemy bride as it is in the Song.  Solomon is perfect in the Song, but not in real life.  Solomon cheated in the end.  Notice the end of the Song, it doesn’t end.  It ends with her still waiting for the return of her husband, the one her heart loves.
We are the bride and Solomon the greatest type of Christ would illustrate or be a type of Christ in this situation.
Rather than being lazy like in Song 3:1 or not listening to her husbands call in Song 5:2, the bride here has been very fruitful and is being complimented because of her excellent moral character, the humble get honored the the husband of a woman who fears the LORD is praised for it by her husband, Solomon says in Proverbs 31:28-30`
The honey was over and it was time to produce children and she did, many of them.  She was delightfully fruitful.

7:3

“Your two breasts are like two fawns,
Twins of a gazelle.

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“As a loving hind and a graceful doe, Let her breasts satisfy you at all times; Be exhilarated always with her love.”
Solomon’s wife has breasts that fully satisfy him, he is exhilarated with her love!  She is happy that he is happy.
Here in Song 7:3,8 Solomon is heeding his own advice.  He is letting her breasts satisfy him for they are the most beautiful breasts on the most beautiful woman.  He looks at them and they are beautiful.  Solomon started with her beautiful royal sandaled feet and has moved up to her glorious hair.
Beautiful!!  Her breasts are beautiful!  They are beautiful to behold.  Her husband is delighted to behold them because they are beautiful.
Beauty.  The closer two of the same are to one another the more beautiful the relation between the two.  Her breasts are symmetrical and proportionate one to the other.  They look the same, they are beautiful.  Size doesn’t matter.  But if one were big and the other small then they wouldn’t be so beautiful and possible not beautiful at all if the deformity was great enough.  This beauty of her breasts is similar to the beauty of her teeth, temples and thighs all of which God is the wise Craftsman 7:2 that made her that way so that guys are attracted to them.  This is a beautiful thing God has done, thank Him for making your spouse handsome or beautiful!!
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If you look at the picture of the twin fawns you will notice that they are identical like her breasts.  Even the spots are similar.  You can’t tell them apart except that one is on the left and the other is on the right.  The scene is absolutely beautiful.  The same as looking at her breasts.  The beauty of the twin fawns is a bit of a complex beauty due to the multiple different relations.  Meaning for the beauty to be more complex there has to be a broader variety of relations.
From head to toe they must be the same size, equal spots, proportionate legs etc. or the scene becomes less lovely if one fawn had only one ear or one leg.  Compassion would ensue upon such a scene but not much delight because the beauty is lessened to a degree.
A beautiful scene invites not only the eyes to look and behold the beauty but to take it all in and examine the whole lovely scene.   There is pleasure in beholding beauty.  Her beauty is a holy beauty in her heart and external beauty.  Her breasts were beautiful set apart and were being used for their God given purposes.

 

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Breasts

“Thy two breasts are like two young roes that are twins, which feed among the lilies.”

 

Beautiful, delicate, a captivating sight, pleasing to the eye of your beloved, like viewing a loving deer or graceful doe or twin fawns of a gazelle.  Solomon chooses the most beautiful scene in nature to compare his wife’s breasts to.   Meaning when Solomon looked at the physical breasts of his wife he got similar thoughts and feelings when he looked at young twin fawns feeding among the lilies.

The most beautiful thing in nature to look at.   Beautiful, Adorable, captivating seeing her with other lilies being nourished and nourishing others in fellowship.  Her breasts are not browsing among the lilies.  Browsing among the lilies is to give us a context of what we are looking at.  Not just twin fawns, but twin fawns browsing among the lilies.

The idea is that the proof of the physical maturity of a woman is in the size of her breasts.  Is she fully mature like her “breasts like towers” in Song 8:10?  No, not yet.  The spiritual maturity of the bride depends on her ability to receive nourishment and grow and also her usefulness to spiritually nourish others or her children.  As a mother breast feeds a child, so also she feeds them spiritual milk of the Word of God.

Other verses in the bible that talk about breasts.

“You will also suck the milk of nations And suck the breast of kings; Then you will know that I, the Lord, am your Savior And your Redeemer, the Mighty One of Jacob.
Have I conceived all this people? have I begotten them, that thou shouldest say unto me, Carry them in thy bosom, as a nursing father beareth the sucking child, unto the land which thou swarest unto their fathers?

Isaiah 66:11 “That ye may suck, and be satisfied with the breasts of her consolations; that ye may milk out, and be delighted with the abundance of her glory”

Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe; let her breasts satisfy thee at all times; and be thou ravished always with her love.
Hosea 2:2   with Song 1:12
“Plead with your mother, plead: for she is not my wife, neither am I her husband: let her therefore put away her whoredoms out of her sight, and her adulteries from between her breasts;

 

Isaiah 49:23, “And kings shall be thy nursing fathers, and their queens thy nursing mothers.”

Isaiah 60:16, “Thou shalt suck the breasts of kings.”

I have caused thee to multiply as the bud of the field, and thou hast increased and waxen great, and thou art come to excellent ornaments: thy breasts are fashioned, and thine hair is grown, whereas thou wast naked and bare.

And they committed whoredoms in Egypt; they committed whoredoms in their youth: there were their breasts pressed, and there they bruised the teats of their virginity.

Neither left she her whoredoms brought from Egypt: for in her youth they lay with her, and they bruised the breasts of her virginity, and poured their whoredom upon her.

Thou shalt even drink it and suck it out, and thou shalt break the sherds thereof, and pluck off thine own breasts: for I have spoken it, saith the Lord God.

Plead with your mother, plead: for she is not my wife, neither am I her husband: let her therefore put away her whoredoms out of her sight, and her adulteries from between her breasts;

Give them, O Lord: what wilt thou give? give them a miscarrying womb and dry breasts.
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Gather the people, sanctify the congregation, assemble the elders, gather the children, and those that suck the breasts: let the bridegroom go forth of his chamber, and the bride out of her closet.

And Huzzab shall be led away captive, she shall be brought up, and her maids shall lead her as with the voice of doves, tabering upon their breasts.

Job 21:15-26

What is the Almighty, that we should serve him? and what profit should we have, if we pray unto him?

16 Lo, their good is not in their hand: the counsel of the wicked is far from me.

17 How oft is the candle of the wicked put out! and how oft cometh their destruction upon them! God distributeth sorrows in his anger.

18 They are as stubble before the wind, and as chaff that the storm carrieth away.

19 God layeth up his iniquity for his children: he rewardeth him, and he shall know it.

20 His eyes shall see his destruction, and he shall drink of the wrath of the Almighty.

21 For what pleasure hath he in his house after him, when the number of his months is cut off in the midst?

22 Shall any teach God knowledge? seeing he judgeth those that are high.

23 One dieth in his full strength, being wholly at ease and quiet.

24 His breasts are full of milk, and his bones are moistened with marrow.

25 And another dieth in the bitterness of his soul, and never eateth with pleasure.

26 They shall lie down alike in the dust, and the worms shall cover them.

 

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Solomons use of the word breasts in the Song of Songs

A bundle of myrrh is my well-beloved unto me; he shall lie all night betwixt my breasts.

Thy two breasts are like two young roes that are twins, which feed among the lilies.

This thy stature is like to a palm tree, and thy breasts to clusters of grapes.

I said, I will go up to the palm tree, I will take hold of the boughs thereof: now also thy breasts shall be as clusters of the vine, and the smell of thy nose like apples;

O that thou wert as my brother, that sucked the breasts of my mother! when I should find thee without, I would kiss thee; yea, I should not be despised.

We have a little sister, and she hath no breasts: what shall we do for our sister in the day when she shall be spoken for?

I am a wall, and my breasts like towers: then was I in his eyes as one that found favour.
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Does Solomon mean her breasts are like towers like the above picture and then she found favor in his eyes?
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Or does Solomon mean spiritual maturity?

I have caused thee to multiply as the bud of the field, and thou hast increased and waxen great, and thou art come to excellent ornaments: thy breasts are fashioned, and thine hair is grown, whereas thou wast naked and bare.

And they committed whoredoms in Egypt; they committed whoredoms in their youth: there were their breasts pressed, and there they bruised the teats of their virginity.

Neither left she her whoredoms brought from Egypt: for in her youth they lay with her, and they bruised the breasts of her virginity, and poured their whoredom upon her.

Thou shalt even drink it and suck it out, and thou shalt break the sherds thereof, and pluck off thine own breasts: for I have spoken it, saith the Lord God.

Plead with your mother, plead: for she is not my wife, neither am I her husband: let her therefore put away her whoredoms out of her sight, and her adulteries from between her breasts;

Give them, O Lord: what wilt thou give? give them a miscarrying womb and dry breasts.
Isa

Gather the people, sanctify the congregation, assemble the elders, gather the children, and those that suck the breasts: let the bridegroom go forth of his chamber, and the bride out of her closet.

And Huzzab shall be led away captive, she shall be brought up, and her maids shall lead her as with the voice of doves, tabering upon their breasts.
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Puritan Quotes

They entertain in their breasts a spiteful disposition one towards another, by which they have no delight in each other’s honor and prosperity, but on the contrary are pleased in the others’ being thrust down and in adversity. JE

Fourth. God is to be sought in those ways where he used to be found, and where he often discovers himself. And what are those ways wherein God used to be found? They are his ordinances: the very end for which God has instituted ordinances, is that in them the children of men may meet with him and find him.

God is wont to be found in these ways; God is wont to command life forevermore upon the mountains of Zion; Christ walks in the midst of his golden candlesticks, and there you may find him. These are the golden pipes by which grace, as precious oil, is conveyed into the soul; these are the breasts of holy and heavenly consolation. See Canticles 1:7–8, “Tell me, O thou whom my soul loveth, where thou feedest, where thou makest thy flock to rest at noon; for why should I be as one that turneth aside by the flocks of thy companions? If thou know not, O thou fairest among women, go thy way forth by the footsteps of the flock, and feed thy kids beside the shepherds’ tents.”

You see that Christ commands us to go by the footsteps of the flock, in the common path, wherein believers have gone before us and found him, in the way where Christ used to be found. And where is that? Beside the shepherds’ tents; that is, in the way of God’s ordinances. This is a way which God himself has marked out, and which has been found successful by thousands. We need not wander in the wilderness, where there is no way, but we have a track; yea, a plain path to be a direction to us, and what we have to do is to run on with all our might in this path.

 

113. MILK represents the Word of God from the breasts of the church, that is not only represented as a woman, but of old was typified by heifers, she-goats, etc. Milk, by its whiteness, represents the purity of the Word of God. It fitly represents the Word because of its sweetness and nourishing nature, and being for the saints in this present state wherein they are children.

This is as it were the natural food of a new nature, or of the creature newly come into the world. By its whiteness and purity, it represents holiness, that is the natural food and delight of the new spiritual nature; for it is this is the direct object of a spiritual relish and appetite.

157. The earth, or this earthly world, does by men’s persons as it does by their bodies. It devours men and eats ’em up. As we see, this our mother, that brought us forth and at whose breasts we are nourished, is cruel to us. She is hungry for the flesh of her children, and swallows up mankind, one generation after another, in the grave, and is insatiable in her appetite. So she does, mystically, [to] those that live by the breasts of the earth and depend on worldly things for happiness. The earth undoes and ruins them; it makes them miserable forever. It devours and eats up the inhabitants thereof, according to the evil report that the spies brought up of the land of Canaan (Numbers 13:32)

Canticles 8:1, “O that thou were as my brother that sucked the breasts of my mother.” The church of Christ is often represented by a tree in Scripture. The tree was planted in Abraham; every member of the church is a branch of that tree, and Christ is the seed of Abraham.

***observe what the Word of God is here called, viz. sincere milk. ‘Tis compared to milk, for as the mother’s milk is the proper nourishment of one lately born, so is the Word of God the proper food and nourishment of the soul that is new born. This is that milk which we do as it were suck from the breasts of our spiritual mother, the church (Isaiah 66:10–11).

Some translate a Hebrew word to mean either “love” or “breasts”

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“Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth: for thy breasts are better than wine”

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Saved in 2000 at age 27. Nearly immediately I fell in love with the Song and grew very fast the first two years memorizing large portions of scripture purifying my mind the started chewing on meat to soon and struggled for 12 years and Christ has me on track like always but I just took the long way around and now I love leading others closer to Christ by seeing His love reflected in Solomons love for an enemy slave girl.

I have experienced God's love to me in the Song in ways that words can't express. There are many portion of the Word where she experiences extra ordinary outpouring of the Holy Spirit of God. If you have a burning desire for a close intimate relationship with God by experiencing His Love to you over and over again at greater and greater heights, depths, lengths and breaths then The Song of Songs is where you need to be.

I can help you with this process of Growing in the experience of God's love. As of 7-23-16 I have experienced everything prior to chapter 8. The Song of Song is progressive in experience. Meaning that if you are mature then you can experience the joys and extraordinary outpourings of God's Love shed abroad in your heart.

If you are not so mature then the delights in the first chapter of the Song will satisfy your thirst for experiencing the Love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Many Christian are living in sin because they do not know how to experience God's love and get hooked on Loving Him. It feels good to be loved and to love Him. His burden is not heavy and His yoke is light, Jesus said in Matt. 10:28

I believe God wants to use me to help beautify His Bride through the Song of Solomon.

If you see the book literally you will not understand nor grasp the Love God has for you. If you see the book and the verses in it relating to Christ's love to you then I would love to show you how to experience this Love to the fullest. I will pray for you daily and guide you every step of the way.

16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

I grew up going to church but was a hypocrite. I lived my life how I chose but went to church on Sunday because my family went.

Mom and Dad divorced when I was about 5.

About this time I was sexually abused by "Bob" a made up name. This incident changed my life for the worst. I had no clue how to deal with it.

As I got older I grew in my hatred for Bob. I didn't blame anyone of my family because I was to young to know any better. Some of what happened during the abuse was in a bathroom. So overtime I would use the bathroom and look at my private parts that night would replay in my mind. My hatred for Bob would continue to grow each time.

Now I know this only happened to me one night. I can't image the pain other's go through who have had this happen to them over and over. Even as I write this now I cry with many tears for those hurting. God love you even though you may not know it or feel it. Go to Him in your time of need.

I was a really bad teenager. I only cared about myself and not even my family. I always came first in my mind. Even at the expense of hurting others. I was growing in my hatred for God by now.

I was going to church and was learned that God was in control. I thought well, if God was in control then He must have let me be sexually abused. I didn't understand this, How could a good and loving God allow this. I hated Him for it. My hatred for Bob grew as well. I was still using the bathroom and memories kept coming back. My heart grew even harder for Bob and God. As far as I was concerned God would have nothing to do with my life so I lived even worse. I thought I would be in jail or dead and I really didn't care, I thought it could be much worse than reliving your painful past over and over again. Little did I know that God's plan later would be to use these events to give me a burning passion for the closest most intimate love relationship with Himself through Christ mainly through the love poem in the Song of Songs in the Bible.

I remember hating Bob so much that the only thing that would relieve my pain was actually thinking he would suffer forever for what he did. I grew so much in my hatred for him that I had to continue to think that he would get even worse than what I imaged before. After some time I would only be relieved of hatred for him unless I thought he would burn in a hotter and hotter hell for all the suffering he put me through.

I never told my mom or family what happened, although I think some of them knew something had happened.

I grew up quite rebellious and even went to jail at the age of 20. I was living the fast life pursuing all my sinful desires and wanting more. It never seemed to be enough. I was quite happy in my sin but I just wanted more of it.

I lived life thinking I would die at a young age, riding motorcycle and living on the edge put me in the hospital many times and I should have been dead.

California at age 26.

I moved to California for a job opportunity at the age of 27. While trying to figure out what radio stations to program in my car, I ran across a RC Sproul talking about "people who have the faith that saves and people who only say that have faith" only the people who have the faith that saves will go to heaven. I thought "I don't think I have the faith that saves because my life was so bad." I searched the scriptures to try to get this faith. I found a church and thought people there could help me get this faith that saves. All along God kept showing me how sinful I was and that I deserved punishment from Him for living my life hating Him.

One weekend I read Matthew, Mark, Luke and John desperately trying to find out how to get this faith that saves. By now I knew that if you had the faith that saves that Jesus would be saving you from a life of sin. I still liked my sin and Jesus sure wasn't saving me from a life of sin, so I rightly concluded that I didn't have the faith that saves.

By the time I got to John, I saw "believe" everywhere. John 3:16 and other verses and wow the whole book was written so that you may believe. John 20:31 "these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name." So at night I would pray "I believe Jesus died for me, I believe, I believe. This was just an intellectual belief. I knew that in history and the Bible that Jesus died for everyone, so I believed it. But this belief did not change my life.

I would go on night after night saying the same prayer only to wake up the next day wanting to fulfill my sinful desires. The prayer wasn't working so I started to word it different each time hoping some prayer would work. After about 2 weeks of this I was fed up with it all, nothing was happening. I still was living in my sin and wanted more of it. A Christian hates their sin and does something about it, and certainly they don't continue to make plans to sin. The prayers weren't working so I gave up. I thought to myself "God, I tried with all my might, I searched the Scriptures, went to church, read the Bible and prayed all to no avail. If Im going to be saved your going to have to do it because I tried."

So I quit praying but still the Bible kept calling me so I read more. 3 Days later I was laying in a tanning bed and God convicted me really hard that I had offended Him by the life I was living. I was so scared of God, where could I run. You can't hide from God. It seemed like forever that I was under these terrors of being punished by a Holy Angry God. This lasted about 10 minutes then this is how I understood it. God let me understand that all that anger that He had for me for all my sin should come my way but He had poured that anger out on Jesus 2,000 years ago. I immediately started weeping an couldn't stop for about 20 minutes. All the sins that I could think of I confessed for that 20 minutes one after another after another, I was so sorrowful and grieved it physically hurt inside.

After I stopped crying I thought that was the weirdest thing that ever happened. I walked out of the tanning salon and stood outside and everything seemed so beautiful, the tree's, the birds, even the air seemed pleasant. Now I was really wondering what was going on.

I pondered all of this as I drove to work that day. I brought my Bible to work and was thinking what am I doing, I want to take my Bible to work so I can read it. As soon as I got to work I started reading my Bible. I couldn't believe what I was reading!! It all was so wonderful. It felt so good to just read my Bible. My client showed up and as I was training them the only thing I could think about was getting back to my Bible. I read all night and slept about 2 hours and was reading again.

I had sinful things in my apartment and I rounded everything evil up and threw it in the garbage. It was weird I was thinking but it felt good so I left it all in the garbage. I called my girlfriend to break it up and she thought I had another girl, I said no, I just think this is wrong we shouldn't be sleeping together. She didn't understand so I told her I was a Christian now and she still thought I had another girlfriend. She said "Im glad your a Christian, so am I" I thought to myself, "I have a strong conviction that sleeping together is wrong and she thought it was okay" I wondered how she could think that. Anyway we broke up.

I kept reading my bible and repenting, there was so much to repent of and I had lived a very sinful life. I was a thief for some part of my life and all the people I stole from kept coming to mind. I owed so much money. I was instantly in debt about $80,000. As I could I paid them back. As of 7-18-2016 I still owe about $25,000 but it sure is a joy to be paying them back.

The first week of being saved a car just about ran me over, they hit me but I wasn't hurt at all. The guy in the car felt so bad. I just looked at him and said "God bless you and have a great day, I am okay" smiled at him and moved on. Now I was really wondering what was going on because I normally would have cussed him out left and right and instead of cussing I blessed him. That was so weird. But again it felt good. I learned to do good by what my conscience told me was good and that it felt good. I got hooked on this feeling good by doing good and did it more often.

About two weeks after being saved I thought of Bob. I immediately prayed for him, something like "Lord help him.." then I stopped praying and said out loud "What am I doing?" I'm praying for a man that I hated my whole life, but it feels good and right, so I did it again. I stopped again midway in the prayer and started pacing around. I was trying to make sense of what was going on and couldn't figure it out. But again it made me happy to pray for him so I did. Bob would often come to mind when I went to the bathroom and each time I would pray for Him. The more I did this the less weird it got. And the greater my love grew for him.

I started memorizing large portions of scripture and this was wonderful because it felt like the words were cleaning my mind and as Proverbs 2:10 "For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul." I wanted more and more of this pleasantness. So I memorized even more and the joy got more and more.

Then this life changing advice came:

A friend from church told me to find a book of the Bible and really understand it. Read through the Bible and pick one and read it over and over and study it and really get it. So I started in Genesis and read through. When I got to Proverbs I really liked it so I thought that would be the book. I started by memorizing all of Proverbs chapter 3. After that I thought maybe there is a better book than Proverbs. So I read on. Then I came to Song of Solomon. I read it with quite some confusion. It wasn't as good as the other books, I didn't know why. So I bought a commentary on it. George Burrowes commentary on the Song of Solomon.

In the commentary I found that George and other saw the book as illustrating God's love to the Church. And not only illustrating it but displaying the Love of Christ better than any other book. This caught my attention big time, because I was having a burning desire for a closer relationship with God and desperately learning about His Love so that I could Love God. You see I had hated Him for so long that God used that old hard heart to spur me on in loving Him. I so much did not want to hate God anymore that I was on fire to learn to Love Him as much and as fast as possible. So here was a book that would help me do that. So I landed on the Song of Solomon. I committed to learning as much of this book as possible.

I memorized the first chapter and would repeat it often throughout the day. I didn't know much of what I was repeating but it sure made me happier and on fire for God. I grew so fast repeating the first chapter over and over again all day, like a dozen times a day at least. It felt so good and I never found any other book that caused me to weep so much. I would often weep everyday just reading it. I was to immature to know what was going on. Even though it hurt to weep so much, I felt like my heart was being cleansed from the filth that was in it by repeating it over and over again so I did. As I read the commentary I understood more and more. What God was doing in me through the Song was greater and faster than any other portion of Scripture so I tended to stay there often. I was so excited about God that I thought it funny that other's in church weren't the same way. Some where happy but it seemed most of them didn't seem to care much about God. They would talk about work, football the weather. The only thing I wanted to talk about was Jesus and God and how can I grow closer to Him.

About this time there was a mission trip to Ireland.

I started to have convictions that I should try to find Bob and witness to him. I kept praying for him but how could he be saved if he hadn't heard the Gospel that has power unto salvation. So I asked family if they had any information. Like me before, my family hated him and thought he deserved hell. After some time I got his name but no location or phone number. Either they didn't know where he was or didn't want to tell me. I prayed some more and then started to get stronger convictions to do something about finding Bob.

So I went on the internet and typed in "his name and child molestation sex offender court" thinking that some court record would have some info leading to where I may find him" I even talked to a private eye and he couldn't help. So I googled some key words and spent hours each day looking through each page. I believed it was God's will for me to witness to Bob. I wanted him to be saved. Really bad. So much so that I thought God would save Bob if I were to witness to him. So I didn't stop searching for him. I kept my computer on each day and went page by page. It took two years to go through about 15,000 pages but I found someone who matched his name in a prison for molesting his grandchildren. I wrote the prison and he wrote back. All kinds of emotions went through my body when I saw his letter from the jail. I didn't open it right away but two hours later God gave me enough courage to face my fears again and I opened the letter. He admitted to being the one who molested me. We wrote back and forth I told him I was angry before but now I was saved and that I loved him and believed God wanted me to talk to him. He read my letters over and over again. I shared the gospel in each one.

I got mad at Bob 2x. Once he said that he love me. I got really angry with him. He didn't love me. That night it was hard to love Bob, I had to call a friend to pray for me to repent, after he prayed I felt greater love for Bob. Then I wrote him back saying "I'm sorry but you can't say that you loved me. You did not love me you lusted after me." He admitted he didn't love as he should have and admitted that it was lust and sinful. Finally some conviction. Yet I only thought he was saying that because I was being nice to him. All his family had left him and he said I was the only "friend" he had.

Wether or not it was true Bob said that he had cancer in his arm and that the help the prison gives was not enough and if he had money he could see a different doctor and get help. I sent him some money and since I was in jail before I knew what it was like to be in there without money, so I sent him money.

About 4-5 months in the economy went down, it was 2008. Work was hard. I still sent him money and I had to work harder. This was a really good lesson for me because I had to "work hard for the benefit of someone who did not deserve it." This was one of the greatest blessing ever because I realized with great certainty that Jesus was in me. This is what Jesus did. Jesus worked his whole life for me and I didn't deserve it!! Christ was in me! This was one of the best feelings ever and it put me in worship for months.

Then a mission trip to Croatia.

Each time I had to leave my business and amazing as it is I was completely okay each time. I am a self employed personal trainer and it is normally absurd to just leave and start over, but each time I had enough work within 2 weeks of coming back. This is a flat out miracle. I trusted God to provide and he did. How many people can start up a business in 2 weeks. Only with the help of God. God was teaching me early on in my walk that as long as I did what He wanted me to do then I had nothing to worry about.

About 3 years saved now.

I Taught the 4 year old's at church Sunday morning for 10 years.

Left my business 2x for mission trips and God miraculously provided when I came back.

I taught 5 x a week plus held a job.

Sunday morning to the kids.
Sunday night with the 5th graders
Friday afternoons at Good News Clubs. Sponsored by Child Evangelism Fellowship.
Friday Nights with the Kids teaching through Pilgrims Progress, I did this 2x
Teaching Monday afternoons at a nursing home. I taught through the Song of Songs once then John, then Romans then back to the Song again! I love the Song of Songs.
I grew up hating God for what happened to me, and now I love Him because He first loved me. My passion is for children to grow up loving God and not hating Him.

My other passion which has become ever greater is to help others see the Love of Christ to His Church in the Song of Songs!!

I would love to help you, just let me know and I will lead you and pray for you.

God demonstrates His love to us in sending His one and only Son to suffer in our place, taking our sins upon Himself so that whoever believes they get to heaven because of what He did for us will not perish but have everlasting life.

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