Solomon’s Song of Songs 1:11 “We will make you earrings of gold studded with silver.”
Solomon had just complimented the moral beauty of his bride in 1:9-10 and now in verse 11 everyone involved with the beauty of the bride promise to make her more beautiful. She is precious, valuable, desirable and pure like gold and jewels and they are going to add to her beauty, her moral beauty that is, her holiness which consists in love to God is what they promise to increase. They promise to beautify her soul!
The bride in the Song beheld the glory of God in the face of Solomon. Beheld the beauty of the LORD in the temple where God was dwelling, revealing Himself to them through the types in the sacrificial system. The beauty of Yahweh is his holiness. She beheld the Beauty of the covenant keeping LORD. His Holiness, which consisted in Love to God or Himself and love to sinful man. She understood with her mind greater views of God’s holiness.
Most of us have heard of sanctification, Sanctification is the act or process of acquiring sanctity, of being made or becoming holy. Supporting verses are at the bottom of this page *1
The “Beautification” of the Soul has to do with Christ in you becoming more beautiful more lovely by you becoming more holy, closer to God, further degree’s of renewal of the heart. Christ lifts the veil over our eyes and we see His Face, Glory and Beauty and we are transformed from one level of beauty to another 2 Cor. 3:18. Beautification also has the idea of attraction due to similar natures. Solomon helps his wife through 5 stages of spiritual beautification. Words can’t express how beautiful she is in His eyes and how morally beautiful she becomes!!
In order for greater sanctification greater and greater revelation of the knowledge of God in the coming messiah must be revealed. God has revealed Himself in many ways from Creation onward to the end of time. To all in a common sense and to some by special revelation. Special revelation is any information needed for salvation outside of common revelation. The promise God gave that Satan would strike at the messiah’s heal but the messiah would crush his head. He will reverse the curse and destroy Satan. The messiah gets hurt but Satan gets crushed, a death blow to his head. Then God came and properly clothed them with the covering of a substitutionary lamb. The lamb would have to be greater than the devil. The substitute must be more powerful and more wise than the Satan. Satan was the most glorious of God’s creation, the most highly exalted angel after he took one look at his own beauty and glorified himself he became evil, the worst enemy of God.
Who could it be that is higher than Satan but lower than God the Father? Who could destroy Satan? Who has the Power, Wisdom and Knowledge to destroy Satan?
Sanctification is a process.
Beautification implies a relationship. Something is beautiful. Which means someone is looking at the beauty of another. Delight is also in the mind when the beauty is comprehended. Christ is holy and delights in the holiness and happiness of His Bride so He works all things together for the spiritual beautification of our souls through 5 distinct phases of our sanctification.
Repeat conversations in order to strengthen the bond. Each meditation is repeated in order to a richer view of Christ! One thought of God and a thought of yourself. Another thought of God and his love for you and the lower and more humble you get. Yes, Song 1:2-2:7 was a great meditation for an hour or two. Now move forward all the while learning and applying 2:8-3:5 never forgetting 1:2-2:7 Each section has a different deepening union in mind. The point of each is for you to learn how to communion with Christ, guided by the unmeasurable wisdom of Solomon. The more one you are with Solomon the more one your are with Christ. Put yourself in the brides position and meditate on the Song, feel her feelings, think her thoughts, be one with the bride and have your heart agree with hers as Solomon is getting your heart to agree with his as Christ desires our hearts to agree and be one with His. Solomon was one with Wisdom, What is his becomes hers. She is in possession of a husband of unmeasurable value!
This woman is absolutely beautiful at the feet of Jesus!
Beauty is a mutual consent and agreement of different things, in form, manner, quantity and visible end or design; called by the various names of regularity, order, uniformity, symmetry, proportion, harmony…. Jonathan Edwards
“The glorious excellencies and beauty of God will be what will for ever entertain the minds of the saints, and the love of God will be their everlasting feast.” [ii]
“For as God is infinitely the greatest Being, so he is allowed to be infinitely the most beautiful and excellent; and all the beauty to be found throughout the whole creation, is but the reflection of the diffused beams of that Being who hath an infinite fulness of brightness and glory.”
The Song of Songs illustrates for us the union and communion of a bride with a lesser Christ, Solomon. That union and communion with him in brought her closer to him by his/His love and grace. He loved her closer to himself. His name was like perfume poured out. How does the greatest husband who ever lived that was “Chief among ten thousand” Song 1:10 and “better than any other beloved” Song 5:9 commune with his wife? What are their conversations like?
The Bride of Christ in the Song of Song is the most beautiful woman of all! What is beautiful about her? God see’s her love to Himself upon her heart and she is the most beautiful of all women! God is love. Love to God is beautiful. Love to God has degrees of both light and heat. Light is knowledge of God and heat is the “very flame of the Lord” or love to God. Light is the idea of God understood in the mind and love to and delight in God with the whole heart. This idea of God or image renewed on the heart is beautiful! Most beautiful! Christ in you! God looks at you only in Christ, “let them be one, as We are One.” John 17:22
We will forever be being continually growing in beauty or moral excellency. Beauty carries with it the idea and feeling of attraction or agreement of natures. When the mind perceives the Beauty of the LORD Psalm 27:4 Moral excellency has virtue overtones to it. Therefore if the nature of the soul is beautiful by God’s definition of beauty then it must be morally excellent. Another way of saying moral excellence is holiness. Holiness consists in Love to God. Each degree higher 2 Cor. 3:18 is more holiness which consists in Love to God, therefore more moral beauty is added and you are more beautiful. Thus the more worthy of honor and praise. This is why Solomon praises his wife often in the Song as he is compliment the moral beauty of her love to God Song of Songs 4:1, 7, 10. Seen in her submission to and delight in him. “I am my lovers, and his desire is for me.”
Nothing in the world can compare with the beauty of God’s Son, who always was, is and will be One with His Bride. From God’s perspective we were always one with Christ, married to Him, united to Him. When God see’s Christ we are one with Him and he See’s us in Christ alone. Christ the Head and the Bride the body. Most Beautiful she is having Him as her adornment.
- What is the beauty of the soul?
- Right view of God in Christ.
- This view gets purer and greater. Higher views of God in Christ.
- Greater love is written on the heart.
- With the proper heart response
- Christ had a right view of God in relation to Himself with a proper heart response, “found in the appearance of a man, humbled Himself to the point of death on a cross.” Philippians 2
- Right view of God in Christ.
- What is the beautification process of the soul? The beautification of the soul is that by which the soul due to its union and communion with the infinite Beauty, the Lord Jesus Christ, the soul becomes more holy, more morally excellent, more delightful to behold because their is more of that sweet love flame of the Lord in them.
- Solomon’s and all who are involved in the beautification of the believer promise to make His bride more beautiful Song of Songs 1:11 “Adorning Jewels” the beauty of the soul.
- The value of her lovely beautifier, Solomon and Christ, goes up depending on his skill level to beautify her.
- What are the 4 stages of beautification?
- The Beautification process has 4 maybe 5 phases in the Song of Songs similar to the phases of growth in a believer in the New Testament 1 John 2:12-14 Babe in Christ, Child, Young Man and Strong Young Man, Fully mature spiritual Father. The Babe in Christ phase is not in 1 John but the Galatians, Corinthians and Hebrews were Babe, new born in Christ.
- The beauty of the soul is different in various beings in “relations” and “degree”.
- Adam and Eve before the fall
- Adam after the fall
- In believers
- Old Testament
- New Testament
- The beauty of the soul in heaven!
- THE MATCHLESS BEAUTY OF CHRIST!
- The soul of man is beautiful, how so?
- Naturally in the thoughts and mind
- Morally in the will, affections and desires.
- The degree of moral beauty consists in its holiness or the degree and quality of love, joy and delight in God
- Beauty, delight, pleasant to the senses Song of Solomon 1:2-3
- What is the soul?
- Mind and will. Heart. Thoughts and emotions. Understanding and delight. Where “Knowledge of God” and “love to Him”.
- What is the nature of God’s beautiful image?
- Define Beauty, harmony, moral excellency, symmetry, unity.
- Delight and complacency in holiness. (More below *2)
- To Love a sinful wife as Christ loves His Bride is to view her as Christ views her, “the most beautiful of all women” and “flawless” Song of Songs 1:8, 4:7, 6:8-9
- What is God’s image in man?
- The Beauty of the Lord is most glorious in the temple in the Holy of Holies Ps 27:4
- Being ready and as beautiful as can be for your Bridegroom.
- Solomon promised to make her more precious and desirable to himself by adding beauty and value to her. Song 1:11
- Prerequisites to the beautification process.
- Must be born again.
- Does the Song of Songs beautify the soul better than any other?
- Good question. If you ask me I would say so due to the title Song of Songs. It is a love Song!
- What is the Song superlative in nature?
- God’s intended purpose for marriage was to illustrate the Love of God. We desire to have an understanding of the Love of God. The Song communicates to our minds and understandings the Love of God by experiencing more of Him.
- Any ordinance or truth that communicates
- Is the renewed image of God upon the soul more beautiful than Adam’s?
Isn’t she Beautiful “The Warrior Bride of Christ!”
Verses and more information
*1 “Indeed, the more sanctified the person is, the more conformed he is to the image of his Savior, the more he must recoil against every lack of conformity to the holiness of God. The deeper his apprehension of the majesty of God, the greater the intensity of his love to God, the more persistent his yearning for the attainment of the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus, the more conscious will he be of the gravity of the sin that remains and the more poignant will be his detestation of it….Was this not the effect in all the people of God as they came into closer proximity to the revelation of God’s holiness.” –John Murray, Redemption Accomplished and Applied
- Matthew 5:48 – “You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.”
- Romans 6:22 – “But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the fruit you get leads to sanctification and its end, eternal life.”
- 1 Corinthians 6:11 – “…But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.”
- 2 Corinthians 3:18 – “And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.”
- “We” 1 Corinthians 3:9 “For we are co-workers in God’s service; you are God’s field, God’s building”
*2 Complacency not meaning “lazy” but the way the puritans meant it in relation to God holiness. Complacency in holiness is an agreement of natures. Both lovers are holy and most beautiful in Christ.
Oh yeah, this will help beautify the soul as well. Heb. 12:10
Let me keep it simple. Read your Bible daily and whatever your conscience tells you to do then do it. Whatever God wants you to do will make your more beautiful. More like Christ. All things work together for you to be more conformed to the image of Christ Romans 8:28-29. Wow!!! This means God works all things together for you to be more beautiful!!
Beautification= the act of becoming more beautiful. What Solomon promises he will do to his wife in Song 1:11
Beauty= is a mutual consent and agreement of different things, in form, manner, quantity and visible end or design; called by the various names of regularity, order, uniformity, symmetry, proportion, harmony…. Jonathan Edwards
The Beauty and excellency of spirits consists in love.
Deformity of evil spirits consists in hatred or malice.
It is the Work of the Holy Spirit to Beautify the Soul
This is very consonant to the office of the Holy Ghost, or his work with respect to creatures, which is threefold: viz. to quicken, enliven and beautify all things; to sanctify intelligent [creatures]; and to comfort and delight them.
(1) He quickens and beautifies all things. So we read that “the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters” [Genesis 1:2], or of the chaos, to bring it out of its confusion, into harmony and beauty. So we read, Job 26:13, that God “by his spirit garnished the heavens.” Now whose office can it be so properly to actuate and enliven all things, as his who is the eternal and essential act and energy of God? And whose office can it be so properly to give all things their sweetness and beauty, as he who is himself the beauty and joy of the Creator?
(2) ‘Tis he that sanctifies created spirits, that is, he gives them divine love: for the Scripture teaches us that all holiness and true grace and virtue is resolvable into that, as its universal spring and principle. As it is the office of the person that is God’s idea and understanding to be the light of the world, to communicate understanding, so ’tis the office of the person that is God’s love to communicate divine love to the creature. In
As the beauty of the divine nature does primarily consist in God’s holiness, so does the beauty of all divine things. Herein consists the beauty of the saints, that they are saints, or holy ones: ’tis the moral image of God in them, which is their beauty; and that is their holiness. Herein consists the beauty and brightness of the angels of heaven, that they are holy angels, and so not devils (Daniel 4:13, 17, 23; Matthew 25:31; Mark 8:38; Acts 10:22; Revelation 14:10). Herein consists the beauty of the Christian religion, above all other religions, that it is so holy a religion. Herein consists the excellency of the Word of God, that it is so holy; Psalms 119:140, “Thy word is very pure, therefore thy servant loveth it.” V. 128, “I esteem all thy precepts, concerning all things, to be right; and I hate every false way.” V. 138, “Thy testimonies, that thou hast commanded, are righteous, and very faithful.” And v. 172, “My tongue shall speak of thy word; for all thy commandments are righteousness.” And Psalms 19:7–10, “The law of the Lord is perfect, converting the soul: the testimony of the Lord is sure, making wise the simple: the statutes of the Lord are right, rejoicing the heart: the commandment of the Lord is pure, enlightening the eyes: the fear of the Lord is clean, enduring forever: the judgments of the Lord are true, and righteous altogether: more to be desired are they than gold, yea, than much fine gold; sweeter also than honey, and the honeycomb.” Herein does primarily consist the amiableness and beauty of the Lord Jesus, whereby he is the chief among ten thousands and altogether lovely; even in that he is the Holy One of God (Acts 3:14), and God’s holy child (Acts 4:27), and “he that is holy, and he that is true” (Revelation 3:7). All the spiritual beauty of his human nature, consisting in his meekness, lowliness, patience, heavenliness, love to God, love to men, condescension to the mean
Saved in 2000 at age 27. Nearly immediately I fell in love with the Song and grew very fast the first two years memorizing large portions of scripture purifying my mind the started chewing on meat to soon and struggled for 12 years and Christ has me on track like always but I just took the long way around and now I love leading others closer to Christ by seeing His love reflected in Solomons love for an enemy slave girl.
I have experienced God's love to me in the Song in ways that words can't express. There are many portion of the Word where she experiences extra ordinary outpouring of the Holy Spirit of God. If you have a burning desire for a close intimate relationship with God by experiencing His Love to you over and over again at greater and greater heights, depths, lengths and breaths then The Song of Songs is where you need to be.
I can help you with this process of Growing in the experience of God's love. As of 7-23-16 I have experienced everything prior to chapter 8. The Song of Song is progressive in experience. Meaning that if you are mature then you can experience the joys and extraordinary outpourings of God's Love shed abroad in your heart.
If you are not so mature then the delights in the first chapter of the Song will satisfy your thirst for experiencing the Love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Many Christian are living in sin because they do not know how to experience God's love and get hooked on Loving Him. It feels good to be loved and to love Him. His burden is not heavy and His yoke is light, Jesus said in Matt. 10:28
I believe God wants to use me to help beautify His Bride through the Song of Solomon.
If you see the book literally you will not understand nor grasp the Love God has for you. If you see the book and the verses in it relating to Christ's love to you then I would love to show you how to experience this Love to the fullest. I will pray for you daily and guide you every step of the way.
16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
I grew up going to church but was a hypocrite. I lived my life how I chose but went to church on Sunday because my family went.
Mom and Dad divorced when I was about 5.
About this time I was sexually abused by "Bob" a made up name. This incident changed my life for the worst. I had no clue how to deal with it.
As I got older I grew in my hatred for Bob. I didn't blame anyone of my family because I was to young to know any better. Some of what happened during the abuse was in a bathroom. So overtime I would use the bathroom and look at my private parts that night would replay in my mind. My hatred for Bob would continue to grow each time.
Now I know this only happened to me one night. I can't image the pain other's go through who have had this happen to them over and over. Even as I write this now I cry with many tears for those hurting. God love you even though you may not know it or feel it. Go to Him in your time of need.
I was a really bad teenager. I only cared about myself and not even my family. I always came first in my mind. Even at the expense of hurting others. I was growing in my hatred for God by now.
I was going to church and was learned that God was in control. I thought well, if God was in control then He must have let me be sexually abused. I didn't understand this, How could a good and loving God allow this. I hated Him for it. My hatred for Bob grew as well. I was still using the bathroom and memories kept coming back. My heart grew even harder for Bob and God. As far as I was concerned God would have nothing to do with my life so I lived even worse. I thought I would be in jail or dead and I really didn't care, I thought it could be much worse than reliving your painful past over and over again. Little did I know that God's plan later would be to use these events to give me a burning passion for the closest most intimate love relationship with Himself through Christ mainly through the love poem in the Song of Songs in the Bible.
I remember hating Bob so much that the only thing that would relieve my pain was actually thinking he would suffer forever for what he did. I grew so much in my hatred for him that I had to continue to think that he would get even worse than what I imaged before. After some time I would only be relieved of hatred for him unless I thought he would burn in a hotter and hotter hell for all the suffering he put me through.
I never told my mom or family what happened, although I think some of them knew something had happened.
I grew up quite rebellious and even went to jail at the age of 20. I was living the fast life pursuing all my sinful desires and wanting more. It never seemed to be enough. I was quite happy in my sin but I just wanted more of it.
I lived life thinking I would die at a young age, riding motorcycle and living on the edge put me in the hospital many times and I should have been dead.
California at age 26.
I moved to California for a job opportunity at the age of 27. While trying to figure out what radio stations to program in my car, I ran across a RC Sproul talking about "people who have the faith that saves and people who only say that have faith" only the people who have the faith that saves will go to heaven. I thought "I don't think I have the faith that saves because my life was so bad." I searched the scriptures to try to get this faith. I found a church and thought people there could help me get this faith that saves. All along God kept showing me how sinful I was and that I deserved punishment from Him for living my life hating Him.
One weekend I read Matthew, Mark, Luke and John desperately trying to find out how to get this faith that saves. By now I knew that if you had the faith that saves that Jesus would be saving you from a life of sin. I still liked my sin and Jesus sure wasn't saving me from a life of sin, so I rightly concluded that I didn't have the faith that saves.
By the time I got to John, I saw "believe" everywhere. John 3:16 and other verses and wow the whole book was written so that you may believe. John 20:31 "these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name." So at night I would pray "I believe Jesus died for me, I believe, I believe. This was just an intellectual belief. I knew that in history and the Bible that Jesus died for everyone, so I believed it. But this belief did not change my life.
I would go on night after night saying the same prayer only to wake up the next day wanting to fulfill my sinful desires. The prayer wasn't working so I started to word it different each time hoping some prayer would work. After about 2 weeks of this I was fed up with it all, nothing was happening. I still was living in my sin and wanted more of it. A Christian hates their sin and does something about it, and certainly they don't continue to make plans to sin. The prayers weren't working so I gave up. I thought to myself "God, I tried with all my might, I searched the Scriptures, went to church, read the Bible and prayed all to no avail. If Im going to be saved your going to have to do it because I tried."
So I quit praying but still the Bible kept calling me so I read more. 3 Days later I was laying in a tanning bed and God convicted me really hard that I had offended Him by the life I was living. I was so scared of God, where could I run. You can't hide from God. It seemed like forever that I was under these terrors of being punished by a Holy Angry God. This lasted about 10 minutes then this is how I understood it. God let me understand that all that anger that He had for me for all my sin should come my way but He had poured that anger out on Jesus 2,000 years ago. I immediately started weeping an couldn't stop for about 20 minutes. All the sins that I could think of I confessed for that 20 minutes one after another after another, I was so sorrowful and grieved it physically hurt inside.
After I stopped crying I thought that was the weirdest thing that ever happened. I walked out of the tanning salon and stood outside and everything seemed so beautiful, the tree's, the birds, even the air seemed pleasant. Now I was really wondering what was going on.
I pondered all of this as I drove to work that day. I brought my Bible to work and was thinking what am I doing, I want to take my Bible to work so I can read it. As soon as I got to work I started reading my Bible. I couldn't believe what I was reading!! It all was so wonderful. It felt so good to just read my Bible. My client showed up and as I was training them the only thing I could think about was getting back to my Bible. I read all night and slept about 2 hours and was reading again.
I had sinful things in my apartment and I rounded everything evil up and threw it in the garbage. It was weird I was thinking but it felt good so I left it all in the garbage. I called my girlfriend to break it up and she thought I had another girl, I said no, I just think this is wrong we shouldn't be sleeping together. She didn't understand so I told her I was a Christian now and she still thought I had another girlfriend. She said "Im glad your a Christian, so am I" I thought to myself, "I have a strong conviction that sleeping together is wrong and she thought it was okay" I wondered how she could think that. Anyway we broke up.
I kept reading my bible and repenting, there was so much to repent of and I had lived a very sinful life. I was a thief for some part of my life and all the people I stole from kept coming to mind. I owed so much money. I was instantly in debt about $80,000. As I could I paid them back. As of 7-18-2016 I still owe about $25,000 but it sure is a joy to be paying them back.
The first week of being saved a car just about ran me over, they hit me but I wasn't hurt at all. The guy in the car felt so bad. I just looked at him and said "God bless you and have a great day, I am okay" smiled at him and moved on. Now I was really wondering what was going on because I normally would have cussed him out left and right and instead of cussing I blessed him. That was so weird. But again it felt good. I learned to do good by what my conscience told me was good and that it felt good. I got hooked on this feeling good by doing good and did it more often.
About two weeks after being saved I thought of Bob. I immediately prayed for him, something like "Lord help him.." then I stopped praying and said out loud "What am I doing?" I'm praying for a man that I hated my whole life, but it feels good and right, so I did it again. I stopped again midway in the prayer and started pacing around. I was trying to make sense of what was going on and couldn't figure it out. But again it made me happy to pray for him so I did. Bob would often come to mind when I went to the bathroom and each time I would pray for Him. The more I did this the less weird it got. And the greater my love grew for him.
I started memorizing large portions of scripture and this was wonderful because it felt like the words were cleaning my mind and as Proverbs 2:10 "For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul." I wanted more and more of this pleasantness. So I memorized even more and the joy got more and more.
Then this life changing advice came:
A friend from church told me to find a book of the Bible and really understand it. Read through the Bible and pick one and read it over and over and study it and really get it. So I started in Genesis and read through. When I got to Proverbs I really liked it so I thought that would be the book. I started by memorizing all of Proverbs chapter 3. After that I thought maybe there is a better book than Proverbs. So I read on. Then I came to Song of Solomon. I read it with quite some confusion. It wasn't as good as the other books, I didn't know why. So I bought a commentary on it. George Burrowes commentary on the Song of Solomon.
In the commentary I found that George and other saw the book as illustrating God's love to the Church. And not only illustrating it but displaying the Love of Christ better than any other book. This caught my attention big time, because I was having a burning desire for a closer relationship with God and desperately learning about His Love so that I could Love God. You see I had hated Him for so long that God used that old hard heart to spur me on in loving Him. I so much did not want to hate God anymore that I was on fire to learn to Love Him as much and as fast as possible. So here was a book that would help me do that. So I landed on the Song of Solomon. I committed to learning as much of this book as possible.
I memorized the first chapter and would repeat it often throughout the day. I didn't know much of what I was repeating but it sure made me happier and on fire for God. I grew so fast repeating the first chapter over and over again all day, like a dozen times a day at least. It felt so good and I never found any other book that caused me to weep so much. I would often weep everyday just reading it. I was to immature to know what was going on. Even though it hurt to weep so much, I felt like my heart was being cleansed from the filth that was in it by repeating it over and over again so I did. As I read the commentary I understood more and more. What God was doing in me through the Song was greater and faster than any other portion of Scripture so I tended to stay there often. I was so excited about God that I thought it funny that other's in church weren't the same way. Some where happy but it seemed most of them didn't seem to care much about God. They would talk about work, football the weather. The only thing I wanted to talk about was Jesus and God and how can I grow closer to Him.
About this time there was a mission trip to Ireland.
I started to have convictions that I should try to find Bob and witness to him. I kept praying for him but how could he be saved if he hadn't heard the Gospel that has power unto salvation. So I asked family if they had any information. Like me before, my family hated him and thought he deserved hell. After some time I got his name but no location or phone number. Either they didn't know where he was or didn't want to tell me. I prayed some more and then started to get stronger convictions to do something about finding Bob.
So I went on the internet and typed in "his name and child molestation sex offender court" thinking that some court record would have some info leading to where I may find him" I even talked to a private eye and he couldn't help. So I googled some key words and spent hours each day looking through each page. I believed it was God's will for me to witness to Bob. I wanted him to be saved. Really bad. So much so that I thought God would save Bob if I were to witness to him. So I didn't stop searching for him. I kept my computer on each day and went page by page. It took two years to go through about 15,000 pages but I found someone who matched his name in a prison for molesting his grandchildren. I wrote the prison and he wrote back. All kinds of emotions went through my body when I saw his letter from the jail. I didn't open it right away but two hours later God gave me enough courage to face my fears again and I opened the letter. He admitted to being the one who molested me. We wrote back and forth I told him I was angry before but now I was saved and that I loved him and believed God wanted me to talk to him. He read my letters over and over again. I shared the gospel in each one.
I got mad at Bob 2x. Once he said that he love me. I got really angry with him. He didn't love me. That night it was hard to love Bob, I had to call a friend to pray for me to repent, after he prayed I felt greater love for Bob. Then I wrote him back saying "I'm sorry but you can't say that you loved me. You did not love me you lusted after me." He admitted he didn't love as he should have and admitted that it was lust and sinful. Finally some conviction. Yet I only thought he was saying that because I was being nice to him. All his family had left him and he said I was the only "friend" he had.
Wether or not it was true Bob said that he had cancer in his arm and that the help the prison gives was not enough and if he had money he could see a different doctor and get help. I sent him some money and since I was in jail before I knew what it was like to be in there without money, so I sent him money.
About 4-5 months in the economy went down, it was 2008. Work was hard. I still sent him money and I had to work harder. This was a really good lesson for me because I had to "work hard for the benefit of someone who did not deserve it." This was one of the greatest blessing ever because I realized with great certainty that Jesus was in me. This is what Jesus did. Jesus worked his whole life for me and I didn't deserve it!! Christ was in me! This was one of the best feelings ever and it put me in worship for months.
Then a mission trip to Croatia.
Each time I had to leave my business and amazing as it is I was completely okay each time. I am a self employed personal trainer and it is normally absurd to just leave and start over, but each time I had enough work within 2 weeks of coming back. This is a flat out miracle. I trusted God to provide and he did. How many people can start up a business in 2 weeks. Only with the help of God. God was teaching me early on in my walk that as long as I did what He wanted me to do then I had nothing to worry about.
About 3 years saved now.
I Taught the 4 year old's at church Sunday morning for 10 years.
Left my business 2x for mission trips and God miraculously provided when I came back.
I taught 5 x a week plus held a job.
Sunday morning to the kids.
Sunday night with the 5th graders
Friday afternoons at Good News Clubs. Sponsored by Child Evangelism Fellowship.
Friday Nights with the Kids teaching through Pilgrims Progress, I did this 2x
Teaching Monday afternoons at a nursing home. I taught through the Song of Songs once then John, then Romans then back to the Song again! I love the Song of Songs.
I grew up hating God for what happened to me, and now I love Him because He first loved me. My passion is for children to grow up loving God and not hating Him.
My other passion which has become ever greater is to help others see the Love of Christ to His Church in the Song of Songs!!
I would love to help you, just let me know and I will lead you and pray for you.
God demonstrates His love to us in sending His one and only Son to suffer in our place, taking our sins upon Himself so that whoever believes they get to heaven because of what He did for us will not perish but have everlasting life.