James 4:10 “Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.”
I have been saved about 16 years now and I could never seem to get this one down, not saying I can humble myself in His sight whenever and however low I want to go. But guided by the unmeasurable wisdom of Solomon, in the Song of Songs, he masterfully guides his wife, as a shepherd leading his sheep to green pastures and quiet waters in the presence of God where there is fullness of joy, leading her ever close (the Lord is close to the broken hearted) and higher (humble yourself in the sight of the Lord and He will lift you up) with God where she is the happiest!!
Here is the meditation that will set your heart aflame and lift you high after the sight of Love of Jesus Christ has lowered your view of yourself and heightened your view of Him.
Song of Song’s 1:2 “Let him kiss me…” The sinful, shulamite who works as a slave enemy of Solomon and his people cries out for multiple kisses of love from Solomon. For Solomon to give an enemy a kiss from the grace and love in his heart, would be a sign that he has forgiven her. Not only does she want a holy kiss of forgiveness to be redeemed from slavery but she also wants the closest intimate relationship with him in marriage expressed in the words “The king has brought me into his chambers”
She is wanting these kisses of love over and over again because his love, also God’s love to her through Solomon is more delightful than wine. She is single and so is Solomon, through their union she would get redemption, be co-heir to his kingdom, would once have been his enemy and then seated at his royal table, be married to the wisest man on the planet therefore he could love her perfectly showing God’s love to her through his self denial, flawless leadership and sweet sanctifying words of God from his stock of unmeasurable wisdom and knowledge that God gave him.
She wants to experience love from him over and over again. Through seeing and experiencing God’s love through Solomon she is changed, the flame of God in her grows.
In a similar way, as God show’s us His love through Jesus Christ our Bridegroom we are changed from one level of glory to another. 2 Cor. 3:18 So why not ask God to reveal His love to you through Christ over and over again. If you are saved then God will answer the cry of His child. Your heavenly Father knows how to give good gifts/the Holy Spirit to His Children, he will not give you a snake.
There are many ways that God shows us his love:
- In sending His Son to die for us while we were yet sinners
- In Christ dying for us
- In Christ living a perfect life for it to be credited to our account upon believing in Him
- Psalm 136 reveals to us many ways God showed His love to Israel over and over again!! For His love endures forever.
- In preparing the most glorious and happy place for you in heaven
- In Interceding for you at the right hand of the father
- Forgiving your sins
- Sweetly drawing you closer to Himself through Christ
- Giving you the Holy Spirit to guide, comfort, convict and enflame your heart toward God through His Word.
- and on and on and on……
Step one “Ask God to show you His Love over and over”
Ask God to bring to you understanding His love that is beyond your understanding. Want this over and over again because His love being revealed to your heart is more delightful than any other pleasure. Get hooked on this. You can never ask this enough!! A humbled hungry soul will always sooner or later be fully satisfied. There is an infinite ocean of love to be poured into your soul. You need only be patient and humble yourself and in due time he will lift you up. In this light, as He is revealing Himself to you through the face of Christ, see that it is right for angels, saints in heaven and for you to adore and exalt Him because of His Love. See it as if you and all the upright angels and saints are saying “we will rejoice and delight in you, we will praise your love more than wine”
See it as if God is revealing to you His love in a greater degree than ever before. Keep asking for it like you are a deer in the desert needing water or you will die, ask for his love like waves of mercy coming one after another larger and larger quenching the thirst of your soul for the love of God that you most certainly do not deserve!!
Step two “See yourself as dark and a sinner”
In this greater view of the love of God in Christ, see yourself for who you are. A sinner, dark and not holy and loving like Him. There is none like Him. He is holy and you are not apart from Him working in you, He is infinitely good and you are evil, dark you are, see yourself dark and darker like the blackest of black holes only taking and never giving light apart from Him. He is loving and you are selfish, you will see this in His light. Weep, mourn and wail, This is the humbling!! Humble yourself. Your pride in your own righteousness will try to keep you from viewing yourself as you are, you are a sinner in need of a Saviour and cleansing. You are dark the darkest of dark. However dark you see yourself it is not dark enough. Humble yourself by seeing yourself darker than ever before.
Think of all your sin, from birth til now and put it all in this idea of “Dark like the tents of Kedar” The mind needs a physical illustration to attach to a spiritual truth in order for truth to be communicated to the mind more clearly. Remember the idea is spiritual growth. Growth in the knowledge of things the Spirit reveals. Our darkness is one of them. Think not only of past sins but all your sins since a believer, much more grievous are the sin of a believer. We have the power of the Spirit, we have promises for help in our time of need but do not ask. We have received far more light than before as a non believer, to whom much is given much is required, and oh how we have waisted our time and talents on and on. The point here is to see yourself as dark as possible without falling into despair or fear of punishment. If you start fearing punishment like John did in Revelation 1:17, then think much upon His Love and Grace at the cross being greater than your sin then soon this love will cast out the fear you had of punishment. 1 John 4:17-18.
Step three “Both Deepen and Balance your believes, thoughts and religious emotions”
Seeing yourself as a sinner and dark can bring a feeling of hopelessness, despair or even the wrong motive of doing good works done out of fear of punishment. A holy fear and holy hope go together Psalm 33:18 and Psalm 147:11. So you need to see yourself as dark, yea very dark, the darkest of dark, and darker than anyone else along with seeing yourself as lovely, beautiful and morally perfect in Christ putting your “hope in His unfailing love.” A right balance will keep you close to God. Seeing God MORE holy as His Light shines BRIGHTER in you will allow you to see yourself MORE evil than before thus MORE dark leading you to hold onto Christ TIGHTER. In this manner a closer more intimate relationship with God is built through Christ. Remember it’s not that you got darker but the light just got brighter. You can see yourself more for what you truly are. God will do this in degree’s. Thus growing in humility.
You balance this humbling of yourself, dark, with lovely, with the Lord our righteousness, the Lord Jesus Christ in us, infused as it were, one with me. God see’s me as lovely, yes I am, your really are, God can’t stare at your darkness, it is gone as far as the east is from the west. God has graciously honored you by giving you the perfect righteousness of Jesus Christ. Thin “Dark am I yet lovely” this loveliness is because Jesus never disobeyed God. He was tempted in every way like us yet did not sin. He was perfect. That perfection is given to you when you were saved. Imputed to your account. God see’s you in Christ. You are hidden with in Christ. United to God through Christ, God see’s you as perfect like His Son and therefore loves you as He loves His perfect Son.
God see’s you as perfectly lovely in Christ, morally excellent”With humility comes honor”, the Proverbs say, so now see yourself as lovely. Only after you have humbled yourself should you see yourself as lovely. If you see yourself as lovely and forgiven and saved to often you will get prideful in to many of these thoughts. So to balance these thoughts humble yourself in the sight of the Lord, you see him, he see’s you, and you see yourself in the ugliest way ever, but this is good, because humility is you having a right view of God in relation to Him with a proper heart response. A right view is that you are both dark with sin yet forgiven and lovely with holiness as well.
As you grow closer to God and see yourself darker and more lovely your communion with God will become more intimate. You are lovely and you are dark. The greater God reveals his love to you over and over then the darker you will see yourself and the lovelier you will understand yourself to be in God’s sight. Yes you are beautiful, morally excellent and holy but this only gets better as you listen and purposefully deny yourself for Him.
Be careful not to spend to much time here no top of these mountain because they haunt of leopards that tempt you to spiritual pride. Meaning you may not see yourself as sinful and weak and not hang onto Christ. You just saw yourself as sinful and humbled in His presence and now you could go overboard in the the thoughts of the loveliness, moral excellency and beauty that is Christ in you. If you think you are out of danger then this is to far, you are already in danger. Listen for Christ calling you down. Song 4:8 and if you go back down and humble yourself before or just as you see prides ugly head, don’t let that leopard that haunts the moutaintops get you by not humbling yourself at your shepherds call, then this one glance of obedience which is you humbling yourself when sensing pride this is another jewel on your necklace that makes you precious and valuable in the sight of Christ and steals his heart away. Song 4:9
Step 4 “Confess your sin, The Lord is close to the broken hearted”
This is a continued meditation for the purpose of a closer more intimate relationship with God through Christ. The length of time spent meditating of God’s love, adoring him, worshiping, confessing sin etc. is between you and the Lord. Draw near to Him and He will draw near to you. You asking for Him to show you His love is you drawing near to Him therefore He will draw near to you, when he does your heart will be broken with the sight of your sin in the light of His holiness. Now, confess your sin. After such revelations of God’s love to you, you adoring him, delighting in His love, humbling yourself and weeping because “the Lord is close to the broken hearted” Psalm 34:18, be sincere, don’t wax over any evil or darkness you see in your heart. Confess it to Him!! Do not fear His punishment. This may be a scary thing to tell a Holy God of your offending Him. Wow, Do not worry he is delightfully drawing near to you putting your sins as far as the east is from the west. Think of His perfect love for you at the cross which will cast out all fear of punishment. Let Him hear your voice for your voice is sweet to him and your righteousness in Christ lovely. By confessing to Him your sins you are obeying Him, therefore He loves to hear your voice.
God is holy and hates the sin, and the sinner that continues in sin he hates with a passion. Psalm 11:5 and Psalm 5:5. Expect only Judgement if you are continuing in the same pattern of sin. Keep in mind that he loves the confession of sin for it is Him doing the convicting in you. Mixed with the sorrow for offending the one you love, there should be a joy inexpressible and full of glory in your heart for what Christ has done. Don’t walk away from confession condemning yourself. Although if you are not saved or saved and continuing in sin you will rightly feel this condemnation. Look to Christ, He came to save the worst of sinners, His grace is greater than your sin no matter how bad or how long you have been in sin, His work on the cross is sufficient to cleanse the darkest sinner!! Yes, you deserve the lake of fire, let that humble you then look to the one who’s sacrifice averted God’s wrath away from you. God is a consuming fire and your sin has earned you God’s wrath only yet Christ and took your sin upon Himself on the cross during the 3 hours of darkness. Then declared “It is finished.” He bore the full wrath of God and finished the work God sent him for to do.
Step 5 “He who began this good work in you will complete it.”
Know that He has, He is, and He will make you beautiful. Your heart is beautifully adorned with love to God and His commandment written on your heart. He will make you more beautiful. This is a promise and God can not lie! Your beauty is your moral excellency and your moral excellency consists in your love to God. Therefore as God’s shines more Light into the remaining darkness of your heart, this light will fuel and enflame the love of God in you as it burns away the dross making your heart purer and purer like gold making you valuable and precious in His sight. Keep your eye on Him, God showing you His Gracious love in higher waves will make you more beautiful, from one level of glory to another, by His Spirit.
Step 5 “Esteem Christ as more valuable than gold, worth dying for in order to have Him close to your heart!!”
Now value Christ more than anything. Value him more than gold and wisdom more than rubies. He is your all and all. Believe this blossoming relationship is firm and growing like a mustard seed that starts small and grows great!!
Step 6 “Fight on in the joy of the Lord”
Be sure to fight some besetting sin or do greater works with this new joy and enflamed heart. The joy of the Lord will be your strength!!
Step 7 “Follow the steps, yet Don’t follow the steps”
There are no hard and steadfast rules to this. Most of this is from my own experience. So in my humble experiences I have learned a few things, so I think it best for you to repeat the steps till you learn them remembering step one all day!! Or as often as possible. For sure in the morning and then remember His Faithfulness in the evening. Balancing your thoughts and feelings for this is where true soul peace resides.
Saved in 2000 at age 27. Nearly immediately I fell in love with the Song and grew very fast the first two years memorizing large portions of scripture purifying my mind the started chewing on meat to soon and struggled for 12 years and Christ has me on track like always but I just took the long way around and now I love leading others closer to Christ by seeing His love reflected in Solomons love for an enemy slave girl.
I have experienced God's love to me in the Song in ways that words can't express. There are many portion of the Word where she experiences extra ordinary outpouring of the Holy Spirit of God. If you have a burning desire for a close intimate relationship with God by experiencing His Love to you over and over again at greater and greater heights, depths, lengths and breaths then The Song of Songs is where you need to be.
I can help you with this process of Growing in the experience of God's love. As of 7-23-16 I have experienced everything prior to chapter 8. The Song of Song is progressive in experience. Meaning that if you are mature then you can experience the joys and extraordinary outpourings of God's Love shed abroad in your heart.
If you are not so mature then the delights in the first chapter of the Song will satisfy your thirst for experiencing the Love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Many Christian are living in sin because they do not know how to experience God's love and get hooked on Loving Him. It feels good to be loved and to love Him. His burden is not heavy and His yoke is light, Jesus said in Matt. 10:28
I believe God wants to use me to help beautify His Bride through the Song of Solomon.
If you see the book literally you will not understand nor grasp the Love God has for you. If you see the book and the verses in it relating to Christ's love to you then I would love to show you how to experience this Love to the fullest. I will pray for you daily and guide you every step of the way.
16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
I grew up going to church but was a hypocrite. I lived my life how I chose but went to church on Sunday because my family went.
Mom and Dad divorced when I was about 5.
About this time I was sexually abused by "Bob" a made up name. This incident changed my life for the worst. I had no clue how to deal with it.
As I got older I grew in my hatred for Bob. I didn't blame anyone of my family because I was to young to know any better. Some of what happened during the abuse was in a bathroom. So overtime I would use the bathroom and look at my private parts that night would replay in my mind. My hatred for Bob would continue to grow each time.
Now I know this only happened to me one night. I can't image the pain other's go through who have had this happen to them over and over. Even as I write this now I cry with many tears for those hurting. God love you even though you may not know it or feel it. Go to Him in your time of need.
I was a really bad teenager. I only cared about myself and not even my family. I always came first in my mind. Even at the expense of hurting others. I was growing in my hatred for God by now.
I was going to church and was learned that God was in control. I thought well, if God was in control then He must have let me be sexually abused. I didn't understand this, How could a good and loving God allow this. I hated Him for it. My hatred for Bob grew as well. I was still using the bathroom and memories kept coming back. My heart grew even harder for Bob and God. As far as I was concerned God would have nothing to do with my life so I lived even worse. I thought I would be in jail or dead and I really didn't care, I thought it could be much worse than reliving your painful past over and over again. Little did I know that God's plan later would be to use these events to give me a burning passion for the closest most intimate love relationship with Himself through Christ mainly through the love poem in the Song of Songs in the Bible.
I remember hating Bob so much that the only thing that would relieve my pain was actually thinking he would suffer forever for what he did. I grew so much in my hatred for him that I had to continue to think that he would get even worse than what I imaged before. After some time I would only be relieved of hatred for him unless I thought he would burn in a hotter and hotter hell for all the suffering he put me through.
I never told my mom or family what happened, although I think some of them knew something had happened.
I grew up quite rebellious and even went to jail at the age of 20. I was living the fast life pursuing all my sinful desires and wanting more. It never seemed to be enough. I was quite happy in my sin but I just wanted more of it.
I lived life thinking I would die at a young age, riding motorcycle and living on the edge put me in the hospital many times and I should have been dead.
California at age 26.
I moved to California for a job opportunity at the age of 27. While trying to figure out what radio stations to program in my car, I ran across a RC Sproul talking about "people who have the faith that saves and people who only say that have faith" only the people who have the faith that saves will go to heaven. I thought "I don't think I have the faith that saves because my life was so bad." I searched the scriptures to try to get this faith. I found a church and thought people there could help me get this faith that saves. All along God kept showing me how sinful I was and that I deserved punishment from Him for living my life hating Him.
One weekend I read Matthew, Mark, Luke and John desperately trying to find out how to get this faith that saves. By now I knew that if you had the faith that saves that Jesus would be saving you from a life of sin. I still liked my sin and Jesus sure wasn't saving me from a life of sin, so I rightly concluded that I didn't have the faith that saves.
By the time I got to John, I saw "believe" everywhere. John 3:16 and other verses and wow the whole book was written so that you may believe. John 20:31 "these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name." So at night I would pray "I believe Jesus died for me, I believe, I believe. This was just an intellectual belief. I knew that in history and the Bible that Jesus died for everyone, so I believed it. But this belief did not change my life.
I would go on night after night saying the same prayer only to wake up the next day wanting to fulfill my sinful desires. The prayer wasn't working so I started to word it different each time hoping some prayer would work. After about 2 weeks of this I was fed up with it all, nothing was happening. I still was living in my sin and wanted more of it. A Christian hates their sin and does something about it, and certainly they don't continue to make plans to sin. The prayers weren't working so I gave up. I thought to myself "God, I tried with all my might, I searched the Scriptures, went to church, read the Bible and prayed all to no avail. If Im going to be saved your going to have to do it because I tried."
So I quit praying but still the Bible kept calling me so I read more. 3 Days later I was laying in a tanning bed and God convicted me really hard that I had offended Him by the life I was living. I was so scared of God, where could I run. You can't hide from God. It seemed like forever that I was under these terrors of being punished by a Holy Angry God. This lasted about 10 minutes then this is how I understood it. God let me understand that all that anger that He had for me for all my sin should come my way but He had poured that anger out on Jesus 2,000 years ago. I immediately started weeping an couldn't stop for about 20 minutes. All the sins that I could think of I confessed for that 20 minutes one after another after another, I was so sorrowful and grieved it physically hurt inside.
After I stopped crying I thought that was the weirdest thing that ever happened. I walked out of the tanning salon and stood outside and everything seemed so beautiful, the tree's, the birds, even the air seemed pleasant. Now I was really wondering what was going on.
I pondered all of this as I drove to work that day. I brought my Bible to work and was thinking what am I doing, I want to take my Bible to work so I can read it. As soon as I got to work I started reading my Bible. I couldn't believe what I was reading!! It all was so wonderful. It felt so good to just read my Bible. My client showed up and as I was training them the only thing I could think about was getting back to my Bible. I read all night and slept about 2 hours and was reading again.
I had sinful things in my apartment and I rounded everything evil up and threw it in the garbage. It was weird I was thinking but it felt good so I left it all in the garbage. I called my girlfriend to break it up and she thought I had another girl, I said no, I just think this is wrong we shouldn't be sleeping together. She didn't understand so I told her I was a Christian now and she still thought I had another girlfriend. She said "Im glad your a Christian, so am I" I thought to myself, "I have a strong conviction that sleeping together is wrong and she thought it was okay" I wondered how she could think that. Anyway we broke up.
I kept reading my bible and repenting, there was so much to repent of and I had lived a very sinful life. I was a thief for some part of my life and all the people I stole from kept coming to mind. I owed so much money. I was instantly in debt about $80,000. As I could I paid them back. As of 7-18-2016 I still owe about $25,000 but it sure is a joy to be paying them back.
The first week of being saved a car just about ran me over, they hit me but I wasn't hurt at all. The guy in the car felt so bad. I just looked at him and said "God bless you and have a great day, I am okay" smiled at him and moved on. Now I was really wondering what was going on because I normally would have cussed him out left and right and instead of cussing I blessed him. That was so weird. But again it felt good. I learned to do good by what my conscience told me was good and that it felt good. I got hooked on this feeling good by doing good and did it more often.
About two weeks after being saved I thought of Bob. I immediately prayed for him, something like "Lord help him.." then I stopped praying and said out loud "What am I doing?" I'm praying for a man that I hated my whole life, but it feels good and right, so I did it again. I stopped again midway in the prayer and started pacing around. I was trying to make sense of what was going on and couldn't figure it out. But again it made me happy to pray for him so I did. Bob would often come to mind when I went to the bathroom and each time I would pray for Him. The more I did this the less weird it got. And the greater my love grew for him.
I started memorizing large portions of scripture and this was wonderful because it felt like the words were cleaning my mind and as Proverbs 2:10 "For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul." I wanted more and more of this pleasantness. So I memorized even more and the joy got more and more.
Then this life changing advice came:
A friend from church told me to find a book of the Bible and really understand it. Read through the Bible and pick one and read it over and over and study it and really get it. So I started in Genesis and read through. When I got to Proverbs I really liked it so I thought that would be the book. I started by memorizing all of Proverbs chapter 3. After that I thought maybe there is a better book than Proverbs. So I read on. Then I came to Song of Solomon. I read it with quite some confusion. It wasn't as good as the other books, I didn't know why. So I bought a commentary on it. George Burrowes commentary on the Song of Solomon.
In the commentary I found that George and other saw the book as illustrating God's love to the Church. And not only illustrating it but displaying the Love of Christ better than any other book. This caught my attention big time, because I was having a burning desire for a closer relationship with God and desperately learning about His Love so that I could Love God. You see I had hated Him for so long that God used that old hard heart to spur me on in loving Him. I so much did not want to hate God anymore that I was on fire to learn to Love Him as much and as fast as possible. So here was a book that would help me do that. So I landed on the Song of Solomon. I committed to learning as much of this book as possible.
I memorized the first chapter and would repeat it often throughout the day. I didn't know much of what I was repeating but it sure made me happier and on fire for God. I grew so fast repeating the first chapter over and over again all day, like a dozen times a day at least. It felt so good and I never found any other book that caused me to weep so much. I would often weep everyday just reading it. I was to immature to know what was going on. Even though it hurt to weep so much, I felt like my heart was being cleansed from the filth that was in it by repeating it over and over again so I did. As I read the commentary I understood more and more. What God was doing in me through the Song was greater and faster than any other portion of Scripture so I tended to stay there often. I was so excited about God that I thought it funny that other's in church weren't the same way. Some where happy but it seemed most of them didn't seem to care much about God. They would talk about work, football the weather. The only thing I wanted to talk about was Jesus and God and how can I grow closer to Him.
About this time there was a mission trip to Ireland.
I started to have convictions that I should try to find Bob and witness to him. I kept praying for him but how could he be saved if he hadn't heard the Gospel that has power unto salvation. So I asked family if they had any information. Like me before, my family hated him and thought he deserved hell. After some time I got his name but no location or phone number. Either they didn't know where he was or didn't want to tell me. I prayed some more and then started to get stronger convictions to do something about finding Bob.
So I went on the internet and typed in "his name and child molestation sex offender court" thinking that some court record would have some info leading to where I may find him" I even talked to a private eye and he couldn't help. So I googled some key words and spent hours each day looking through each page. I believed it was God's will for me to witness to Bob. I wanted him to be saved. Really bad. So much so that I thought God would save Bob if I were to witness to him. So I didn't stop searching for him. I kept my computer on each day and went page by page. It took two years to go through about 15,000 pages but I found someone who matched his name in a prison for molesting his grandchildren. I wrote the prison and he wrote back. All kinds of emotions went through my body when I saw his letter from the jail. I didn't open it right away but two hours later God gave me enough courage to face my fears again and I opened the letter. He admitted to being the one who molested me. We wrote back and forth I told him I was angry before but now I was saved and that I loved him and believed God wanted me to talk to him. He read my letters over and over again. I shared the gospel in each one.
I got mad at Bob 2x. Once he said that he love me. I got really angry with him. He didn't love me. That night it was hard to love Bob, I had to call a friend to pray for me to repent, after he prayed I felt greater love for Bob. Then I wrote him back saying "I'm sorry but you can't say that you loved me. You did not love me you lusted after me." He admitted he didn't love as he should have and admitted that it was lust and sinful. Finally some conviction. Yet I only thought he was saying that because I was being nice to him. All his family had left him and he said I was the only "friend" he had.
Wether or not it was true Bob said that he had cancer in his arm and that the help the prison gives was not enough and if he had money he could see a different doctor and get help. I sent him some money and since I was in jail before I knew what it was like to be in there without money, so I sent him money.
About 4-5 months in the economy went down, it was 2008. Work was hard. I still sent him money and I had to work harder. This was a really good lesson for me because I had to "work hard for the benefit of someone who did not deserve it." This was one of the greatest blessing ever because I realized with great certainty that Jesus was in me. This is what Jesus did. Jesus worked his whole life for me and I didn't deserve it!! Christ was in me! This was one of the best feelings ever and it put me in worship for months.
Then a mission trip to Croatia.
Each time I had to leave my business and amazing as it is I was completely okay each time. I am a self employed personal trainer and it is normally absurd to just leave and start over, but each time I had enough work within 2 weeks of coming back. This is a flat out miracle. I trusted God to provide and he did. How many people can start up a business in 2 weeks. Only with the help of God. God was teaching me early on in my walk that as long as I did what He wanted me to do then I had nothing to worry about.
About 3 years saved now.
I Taught the 4 year old's at church Sunday morning for 10 years.
Left my business 2x for mission trips and God miraculously provided when I came back.
I taught 5 x a week plus held a job.
Sunday morning to the kids.
Sunday night with the 5th graders
Friday afternoons at Good News Clubs. Sponsored by Child Evangelism Fellowship.
Friday Nights with the Kids teaching through Pilgrims Progress, I did this 2x
Teaching Monday afternoons at a nursing home. I taught through the Song of Songs once then John, then Romans then back to the Song again! I love the Song of Songs.
I grew up hating God for what happened to me, and now I love Him because He first loved me. My passion is for children to grow up loving God and not hating Him.
My other passion which has become ever greater is to help others see the Love of Christ to His Church in the Song of Songs!!
I would love to help you, just let me know and I will lead you and pray for you.
God demonstrates His love to us in sending His one and only Son to suffer in our place, taking our sins upon Himself so that whoever believes they get to heaven because of what He did for us will not perish but have everlasting life.