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“I am a Rose” 3

Solomon’s Song of Songs 2:1  “I am a rose of Sharon, a lily of the valleys.”

 

The Bride in the Love Song realizes something about herself.  She realizes she is beautiful.   Not only beautiful but she is the most beautiful being.  She see’s her holiness and it is beautiful, the most beautiful site and oh, so lovely with the Love of God written on her heart. 8:6

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The beauty of her heart that the bride see’s is her holiness which consisted in her love to God and husband/Husband.  The bride had an unquenchable love in her heart for God 8:6 yet at the same time she had a dark side which she compares to a black evil dwelling place of sin and corruption.   Her words are “Dark am I, yet lovely” 1:5

In our verse above she has in view her loveliness.   What is it about her that makes her lovely?  We know from Song 8:6 that the loveliest part of her is her inside.  Her heart was lovely.  Why was her heart lovely.  And not only was it lovely but the most beautiful sight she has ever seen!!   Her holiness is more beautiful than ever.

She was an enemy save girl, sunburnt from working in the vineyards.   Her sunburnt dark skin gave it away that her heart was evil and only evil continually.  She neglected the duty God gave her to guard her vineyard and the consequences were enslalved to another (husband, Satan).  She hears of the coming messiah and believes in his/His name thus experiencing the Love of God 8:6  And credited righteousness by her faith like Abraham was for believing God in Gen. 15:6.   Her love to God was increasing as she grew in the knowledge of him/Him and his/His love for her.  Being the good shepherd and admirer that he is he leads her, she listens and he admires as “the most beautiful of women” both inside and out 1:9-10.  She is encouraged by all this and highly values the one hear heart loves 1:13.  Her eyes stay fixed on him/Him and His doves eyes are fixed on her 1:15-16.  And it only just begun and the foundation of this relationship is strong as the cedars and covered with luxury 1:17 . Her next thought is that she is the most beautiful she has ever been.   “I am a rose of Sharon”  She is a changed person. Before she was only dark and in 1:5 she see’s herself as dark in one sense and lovely in another, for she says “Dark am I, yet lovely”1:5 .    Now her loveliness is increasing.  The light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of the coming Messiah was increasing along with the flame in her heart for the LORD. 8:6

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“I am a rose”   Not any particular rose but a rose from a garden in Sharon where roses grew the most beautiful!

By Chapter 2 she has learned quite a bit but she has so much more to go.   She was on fire for the LORD, wanted to be married to the greatest type of Christ alive.  This righteousness that comes by being covered in the righteousness of the coming Messiah, depicted in God covering Adam and Eve with the covering of the lamb that died in their place and in the sacrificial system.  Oh what Love God had for Israel to provide a substitute for their sin.  The substitute would be perfect and holy with no mixture of evil in him/Him at all.  All that this substitute has and Is is hers.  His righteousness becomes hers,  Her debt becomes his responsibility, therefore she is lovely.  “I am a rose..”  I am the most beautiful rose in all of the gardens.  I am a rose in Christ.  Her beauty did not originate in herself.  It came from another.   She was only dark before faith in the coming messiah, but now she is dark yet lovely.  Though currently in view the bride has her loveliness in sight.  “I am a rose of Sharon.”   She is lovely with His righteousness credited to her account, therefore with the most perfect life credited to her account as if she lived a perfect life, this is her loveliness or holiness.  This holiness of heart attracts Solomon.

When the bride viewed the most beautiful rose in all of the gardens she thought of her beauty, both inside beauty and external.  The rose reminded her of beauty.  The beauty of the rose was easy to see with her physical eyes.  But with her understanding she knew her heart to be beautiful as well.

What was it in her understanding that made her inside beautiful?

How did she recognize it?  Did what she did in chapter 1 lead up to her knowing she was beautiful or is this a new revelation all of the sudden?

Her being different and holy lead to her persecution for those who want to live a godly life will have thorns in their life.  Trials will come.  Situations in life will come that will help you prove yourself to be different.  You are taking different life choices and this makes your inner heart more beautiful.  You are meditating on scripture so this washes her heart and it becomes more beautiful.  You think often of the love of God in Christ and you become more loving, thus more beautiful like the most beautiful roses that came from the most fertile valley of Sharon.

Her husband/Husband see’s her beauty still shining in the various trials, each thorn seemed to test her faith.  Sometimes failing, but when the test came around again she would learn how to obey.  She would learn to put her armor on and not sin.  She became more beautiful and the darkness was fading away.   Less was dark but what remaining darkness was left looked worse than before because now her nature is more excellent like the blossoming rose among its own thorns.

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Solomon notices her beautiful holiness and steadfast love to God in the trials and it was beautiful like a lovely “lily among thorns is my darling among the maidens.”  Solomons song of songs 2:2

So we notice some truths about the bride in this comparison she makes of herself in 2:1 and his lovely estimation of her in 2:2

Both verses use the metaphor of thorns.  Implicit in 2:1 and explicitly in 2:2

“I am a rose of Sharon…

Rose have thorns, they grow up with the blossoming rose.  Interestingly here the thorns protect the beauty and life of the rose.  Her own thorns protect her beauty.  Her own thorns in her flesh protect her holiness and love to God.  They keep it growing.  Her own thorns keep her growing strong, lovely and beautiful.  To stay humble the bride needs to have thorns in her flesh.  Things that keep her humble like trials or otherwise thorns.

Thorns are very vague here on purpose so that the application is easily made to all.  Each one has his own unique thorns.  Paul’s thorns or trials where false teachers trying to destroy the truths he taught,  Paul had more than than anyone else 2 Cor. 11:23-27 plus one that he prayed 3x for it to go away and because of the great revelations that Paul was getting of Jesus Christ, Go said “My grace is sufficient for you.”  When the thorns exposed Paul’s weaknesses Paul needed to know that God’s undeserved favor toward him in the worst of times God is trying to humble us and keep us from being proud.   God wants to destroy pride in your life by using thorns suited particularly for you.  The degree of your beauty or holiness depends on how far you can humble yourself in the presence of your Savior and Lord in prayer or true holy communion.

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You know it seems like what has been going on is that since the mainstream idea of what “holy communion” is, is this notion that its Catholic Mass only.   The true Biblical idea of communion with God is illustrated in the Song.  Solomon plummeted the depths of intimacy with God by his/His Wisdom, enflaming his heart for God and others.  Solomon grasped the height, depth, breathe and length of God’s love more than anyone else.  Solomon beheld the glory of God in the Temple.  The glory of God’s nature is His Holiness.  Solomon beheld God in the holiest of holies.  The holy of holies was where God manifested His Holiness to sinful man in a degree or light like no other.  This greatest manifestation of the the Beauty of the LORD is blissfully addicting to say the least.  It is more delightful than any other experience.  Holy communion is back and forth holy delightful mutual conversations between two in a union. Ps. 27:8

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How humble can you go?   How soon can you humble yourself?  What can you deny that the LORD wants you to do?  How can you get a higher experience of God’s love for you?  Ask for it bigger than before!!  God can do above and beyond what you can think or image just ask for it.   I mean,  God sent His Son to live a perfect life for you,  then He bore our sins on the cross, what wondrous love is this!!  Taking their punishment upon Himself and fully exhausting the Wrath of God for the sins of His bride, Jesus had already proved His love to His bride to the highest degree at the onset of the union.  ( I think I may have gotten a little off track)  My point is that the beauty of your heart depends on the more humble you are.   Higher views of God gets you closer to him and also allows you to see yourself for who you are.  When you have been thoroughly humbled then you are ready for the sweetest most holy communion with God through Christ.  Back to the lily among thorns.

“like a lily among thorns is my darling among the maidens”

The bride is with the maidens and she is getting persecution for it.  “like a lily among thorns”  So this is more of a compliment because He call her a lily among thorns and not a thorn.  And he doesn’t call her trash or a twig worthy to be burned but she is beautiful and staying lovely under persecution and trials that come with her new union with Solomon.

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These trials and times of testing are like going through the wilderness, the bride will learn how to keep her faith in God and not forget her love to her.   She has much to learn and will be unstoppable in her pursuit due to the unquenchable fire in her heart 8:6 the trials will be blessings that only propel her forward faster by keeping her humble and revealing to herself her own holiness which consisted in love to God or Christ in her.

She did not fail the test.  She looked for love to God in her heart at times of testing and it was there.  She not only noticed it but Solomon did as well, therefore he compliments her for staying holy under trials.

This testing of her faith produced perseverance, her mare like character just picked up speed and the fire is burning hotter than before.

 

2:2

“Like a lily among thorns is my darling among the maidens.”

The thorns around the rose protect it’s beauty.

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The blossoming idea carries in it growing beauty, like the loveliest rose in bloom in the fertile valleys of Sharon yet lowliest lily among thorns.

Here, similar to “Dark am I, yet lovely”  we have balanced emotions and what keeps us humble in times of praise and adoration from the one our heart loves.  For knowing that our lover/Lover see’s us as beautiful among thorns will comfort us.  Its extremely difficult to obey under trials therefore her beauty is all the more praiseworthy due to the difficulty.   The greater the difficulty overcome the greater the praise, provided she stays humble under the praise,  Solomon adores her beauty and lets her know it especially  when he saw the beauty of her holiness shining brighter and brighter after many trials.  Nothing could quench the covenantal love of God for her in the coming Messiah.

Application

  1.  Rejoice in trials that test your faith and you know you came out not sinning because the unquenchable fire in you kept you moving forward even when you fell.  James tells us that these thorns or “trials” are for our good, for the holiness of our hearts God disciplines us Heb. 12:7ff
  2. If you need wisdom then ask,  God will give it to you.  If you lack the skill to make it through the trials and thorns and come out beautiful then ask God for Him to reveal many ways in which Jesus is beautiful and loves his Bride so that you fire for Him will grow for love is reciprocal.

James 1:2 Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing. If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.

Husbands

Praise your wife for the good biblical responses during trials.  Yes, she man not have been perfect but look at all the good she did and how hard she was trying.   The one you love is doing her best and likes to be recognized for it.  Compliment her beauty like a rose among thorns and explain the metaphor, she will be delighted and I’m sure she will give God the ultimate glory.   But don’t hold back on your praise of your wives excellent behavior under trials.   This is one of the times when she is most beautiful when Christ shines in her when her love to God is opposed by Satan and she wins and doesn’t fall prey to his lies.  How beautiful is the warrior bride of Christ during the time of trials!! Nothing can separate her from the love of God that is in her comping Bridegroom. Look your wife is trying.  Trials are tough, kids aren’t born holy and there’s always laundry to do and she has had a loss in the family and she stays joyful knowing that all this testing is producing perseverance and perseverance hope and hope in the promises of God will not disappoint us.  Encourage her with promises in Scripture and God Character or even knowing that He is there and never will forsake her.  Love her as Solomon loved his bride so that the world can see the love of Christ on display in you loving your wife.  She only wants to experience God’s love through you over and over again because it is the most delightful experience on earth.  Show your love to God and wife by praising her beauty when the thorns hurt most, when the trials are the hottest.  This is when we need strength and encouragement, be there for you wife if you love her,  Christ is always there for you.

Repent, confess you lack of love to God, and wife.  You deserve hell fire for not loving your wife as Christ would love the Church.  Confess your sin and look to the love of God in the face of Christ at the cross and melt your heart in the understanding of His Love to you.  Don’t harden your heart.   Go to Jesus daily for strength to obey.  You know you should praise her more, therefore resolve today to do it more often and get better and better at it till she is shining like the noon-day sun and nothing can get her down.

Solomon was a type of Christ and he praised his wife in according with Prov. 31:28-30

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Saved in 2000 at age 27. Nearly immediately I fell in love with the Song and grew very fast the first two years memorizing large portions of scripture purifying my mind the started chewing on meat to soon and struggled for 12 years and Christ has me on track like always but I just took the long way around and now I love leading others closer to Christ by seeing His love reflected in Solomons love for an enemy slave girl.

I have experienced God's love to me in the Song in ways that words can't express. There are many portion of the Word where she experiences extra ordinary outpouring of the Holy Spirit of God. If you have a burning desire for a close intimate relationship with God by experiencing His Love to you over and over again at greater and greater heights, depths, lengths and breaths then The Song of Songs is where you need to be.

I can help you with this process of Growing in the experience of God's love. As of 7-23-16 I have experienced everything prior to chapter 8. The Song of Song is progressive in experience. Meaning that if you are mature then you can experience the joys and extraordinary outpourings of God's Love shed abroad in your heart.

If you are not so mature then the delights in the first chapter of the Song will satisfy your thirst for experiencing the Love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Many Christian are living in sin because they do not know how to experience God's love and get hooked on Loving Him. It feels good to be loved and to love Him. His burden is not heavy and His yoke is light, Jesus said in Matt. 10:28

I believe God wants to use me to help beautify His Bride through the Song of Solomon.

If you see the book literally you will not understand nor grasp the Love God has for you. If you see the book and the verses in it relating to Christ's love to you then I would love to show you how to experience this Love to the fullest. I will pray for you daily and guide you every step of the way.

16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

I grew up going to church but was a hypocrite. I lived my life how I chose but went to church on Sunday because my family went.

Mom and Dad divorced when I was about 5.

About this time I was sexually abused by "Bob" a made up name. This incident changed my life for the worst. I had no clue how to deal with it.

As I got older I grew in my hatred for Bob. I didn't blame anyone of my family because I was to young to know any better. Some of what happened during the abuse was in a bathroom. So overtime I would use the bathroom and look at my private parts that night would replay in my mind. My hatred for Bob would continue to grow each time.

Now I know this only happened to me one night. I can't image the pain other's go through who have had this happen to them over and over. Even as I write this now I cry with many tears for those hurting. God love you even though you may not know it or feel it. Go to Him in your time of need.

I was a really bad teenager. I only cared about myself and not even my family. I always came first in my mind. Even at the expense of hurting others. I was growing in my hatred for God by now.

I was going to church and was learned that God was in control. I thought well, if God was in control then He must have let me be sexually abused. I didn't understand this, How could a good and loving God allow this. I hated Him for it. My hatred for Bob grew as well. I was still using the bathroom and memories kept coming back. My heart grew even harder for Bob and God. As far as I was concerned God would have nothing to do with my life so I lived even worse. I thought I would be in jail or dead and I really didn't care, I thought it could be much worse than reliving your painful past over and over again. Little did I know that God's plan later would be to use these events to give me a burning passion for the closest most intimate love relationship with Himself through Christ mainly through the love poem in the Song of Songs in the Bible.

I remember hating Bob so much that the only thing that would relieve my pain was actually thinking he would suffer forever for what he did. I grew so much in my hatred for him that I had to continue to think that he would get even worse than what I imaged before. After some time I would only be relieved of hatred for him unless I thought he would burn in a hotter and hotter hell for all the suffering he put me through.

I never told my mom or family what happened, although I think some of them knew something had happened.

I grew up quite rebellious and even went to jail at the age of 20. I was living the fast life pursuing all my sinful desires and wanting more. It never seemed to be enough. I was quite happy in my sin but I just wanted more of it.

I lived life thinking I would die at a young age, riding motorcycle and living on the edge put me in the hospital many times and I should have been dead.

California at age 26.

I moved to California for a job opportunity at the age of 27. While trying to figure out what radio stations to program in my car, I ran across a RC Sproul talking about "people who have the faith that saves and people who only say that have faith" only the people who have the faith that saves will go to heaven. I thought "I don't think I have the faith that saves because my life was so bad." I searched the scriptures to try to get this faith. I found a church and thought people there could help me get this faith that saves. All along God kept showing me how sinful I was and that I deserved punishment from Him for living my life hating Him.

One weekend I read Matthew, Mark, Luke and John desperately trying to find out how to get this faith that saves. By now I knew that if you had the faith that saves that Jesus would be saving you from a life of sin. I still liked my sin and Jesus sure wasn't saving me from a life of sin, so I rightly concluded that I didn't have the faith that saves.

By the time I got to John, I saw "believe" everywhere. John 3:16 and other verses and wow the whole book was written so that you may believe. John 20:31 "these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name." So at night I would pray "I believe Jesus died for me, I believe, I believe. This was just an intellectual belief. I knew that in history and the Bible that Jesus died for everyone, so I believed it. But this belief did not change my life.

I would go on night after night saying the same prayer only to wake up the next day wanting to fulfill my sinful desires. The prayer wasn't working so I started to word it different each time hoping some prayer would work. After about 2 weeks of this I was fed up with it all, nothing was happening. I still was living in my sin and wanted more of it. A Christian hates their sin and does something about it, and certainly they don't continue to make plans to sin. The prayers weren't working so I gave up. I thought to myself "God, I tried with all my might, I searched the Scriptures, went to church, read the Bible and prayed all to no avail. If Im going to be saved your going to have to do it because I tried."

So I quit praying but still the Bible kept calling me so I read more. 3 Days later I was laying in a tanning bed and God convicted me really hard that I had offended Him by the life I was living. I was so scared of God, where could I run. You can't hide from God. It seemed like forever that I was under these terrors of being punished by a Holy Angry God. This lasted about 10 minutes then this is how I understood it. God let me understand that all that anger that He had for me for all my sin should come my way but He had poured that anger out on Jesus 2,000 years ago. I immediately started weeping an couldn't stop for about 20 minutes. All the sins that I could think of I confessed for that 20 minutes one after another after another, I was so sorrowful and grieved it physically hurt inside.

After I stopped crying I thought that was the weirdest thing that ever happened. I walked out of the tanning salon and stood outside and everything seemed so beautiful, the tree's, the birds, even the air seemed pleasant. Now I was really wondering what was going on.

I pondered all of this as I drove to work that day. I brought my Bible to work and was thinking what am I doing, I want to take my Bible to work so I can read it. As soon as I got to work I started reading my Bible. I couldn't believe what I was reading!! It all was so wonderful. It felt so good to just read my Bible. My client showed up and as I was training them the only thing I could think about was getting back to my Bible. I read all night and slept about 2 hours and was reading again.

I had sinful things in my apartment and I rounded everything evil up and threw it in the garbage. It was weird I was thinking but it felt good so I left it all in the garbage. I called my girlfriend to break it up and she thought I had another girl, I said no, I just think this is wrong we shouldn't be sleeping together. She didn't understand so I told her I was a Christian now and she still thought I had another girlfriend. She said "Im glad your a Christian, so am I" I thought to myself, "I have a strong conviction that sleeping together is wrong and she thought it was okay" I wondered how she could think that. Anyway we broke up.

I kept reading my bible and repenting, there was so much to repent of and I had lived a very sinful life. I was a thief for some part of my life and all the people I stole from kept coming to mind. I owed so much money. I was instantly in debt about $80,000. As I could I paid them back. As of 7-18-2016 I still owe about $25,000 but it sure is a joy to be paying them back.

The first week of being saved a car just about ran me over, they hit me but I wasn't hurt at all. The guy in the car felt so bad. I just looked at him and said "God bless you and have a great day, I am okay" smiled at him and moved on. Now I was really wondering what was going on because I normally would have cussed him out left and right and instead of cussing I blessed him. That was so weird. But again it felt good. I learned to do good by what my conscience told me was good and that it felt good. I got hooked on this feeling good by doing good and did it more often.

About two weeks after being saved I thought of Bob. I immediately prayed for him, something like "Lord help him.." then I stopped praying and said out loud "What am I doing?" I'm praying for a man that I hated my whole life, but it feels good and right, so I did it again. I stopped again midway in the prayer and started pacing around. I was trying to make sense of what was going on and couldn't figure it out. But again it made me happy to pray for him so I did. Bob would often come to mind when I went to the bathroom and each time I would pray for Him. The more I did this the less weird it got. And the greater my love grew for him.

I started memorizing large portions of scripture and this was wonderful because it felt like the words were cleaning my mind and as Proverbs 2:10 "For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul." I wanted more and more of this pleasantness. So I memorized even more and the joy got more and more.

Then this life changing advice came:

A friend from church told me to find a book of the Bible and really understand it. Read through the Bible and pick one and read it over and over and study it and really get it. So I started in Genesis and read through. When I got to Proverbs I really liked it so I thought that would be the book. I started by memorizing all of Proverbs chapter 3. After that I thought maybe there is a better book than Proverbs. So I read on. Then I came to Song of Solomon. I read it with quite some confusion. It wasn't as good as the other books, I didn't know why. So I bought a commentary on it. George Burrowes commentary on the Song of Solomon.

In the commentary I found that George and other saw the book as illustrating God's love to the Church. And not only illustrating it but displaying the Love of Christ better than any other book. This caught my attention big time, because I was having a burning desire for a closer relationship with God and desperately learning about His Love so that I could Love God. You see I had hated Him for so long that God used that old hard heart to spur me on in loving Him. I so much did not want to hate God anymore that I was on fire to learn to Love Him as much and as fast as possible. So here was a book that would help me do that. So I landed on the Song of Solomon. I committed to learning as much of this book as possible.

I memorized the first chapter and would repeat it often throughout the day. I didn't know much of what I was repeating but it sure made me happier and on fire for God. I grew so fast repeating the first chapter over and over again all day, like a dozen times a day at least. It felt so good and I never found any other book that caused me to weep so much. I would often weep everyday just reading it. I was to immature to know what was going on. Even though it hurt to weep so much, I felt like my heart was being cleansed from the filth that was in it by repeating it over and over again so I did. As I read the commentary I understood more and more. What God was doing in me through the Song was greater and faster than any other portion of Scripture so I tended to stay there often. I was so excited about God that I thought it funny that other's in church weren't the same way. Some where happy but it seemed most of them didn't seem to care much about God. They would talk about work, football the weather. The only thing I wanted to talk about was Jesus and God and how can I grow closer to Him.

About this time there was a mission trip to Ireland.

I started to have convictions that I should try to find Bob and witness to him. I kept praying for him but how could he be saved if he hadn't heard the Gospel that has power unto salvation. So I asked family if they had any information. Like me before, my family hated him and thought he deserved hell. After some time I got his name but no location or phone number. Either they didn't know where he was or didn't want to tell me. I prayed some more and then started to get stronger convictions to do something about finding Bob.

So I went on the internet and typed in "his name and child molestation sex offender court" thinking that some court record would have some info leading to where I may find him" I even talked to a private eye and he couldn't help. So I googled some key words and spent hours each day looking through each page. I believed it was God's will for me to witness to Bob. I wanted him to be saved. Really bad. So much so that I thought God would save Bob if I were to witness to him. So I didn't stop searching for him. I kept my computer on each day and went page by page. It took two years to go through about 15,000 pages but I found someone who matched his name in a prison for molesting his grandchildren. I wrote the prison and he wrote back. All kinds of emotions went through my body when I saw his letter from the jail. I didn't open it right away but two hours later God gave me enough courage to face my fears again and I opened the letter. He admitted to being the one who molested me. We wrote back and forth I told him I was angry before but now I was saved and that I loved him and believed God wanted me to talk to him. He read my letters over and over again. I shared the gospel in each one.

I got mad at Bob 2x. Once he said that he love me. I got really angry with him. He didn't love me. That night it was hard to love Bob, I had to call a friend to pray for me to repent, after he prayed I felt greater love for Bob. Then I wrote him back saying "I'm sorry but you can't say that you loved me. You did not love me you lusted after me." He admitted he didn't love as he should have and admitted that it was lust and sinful. Finally some conviction. Yet I only thought he was saying that because I was being nice to him. All his family had left him and he said I was the only "friend" he had.

Wether or not it was true Bob said that he had cancer in his arm and that the help the prison gives was not enough and if he had money he could see a different doctor and get help. I sent him some money and since I was in jail before I knew what it was like to be in there without money, so I sent him money.

About 4-5 months in the economy went down, it was 2008. Work was hard. I still sent him money and I had to work harder. This was a really good lesson for me because I had to "work hard for the benefit of someone who did not deserve it." This was one of the greatest blessing ever because I realized with great certainty that Jesus was in me. This is what Jesus did. Jesus worked his whole life for me and I didn't deserve it!! Christ was in me! This was one of the best feelings ever and it put me in worship for months.

Then a mission trip to Croatia.

Each time I had to leave my business and amazing as it is I was completely okay each time. I am a self employed personal trainer and it is normally absurd to just leave and start over, but each time I had enough work within 2 weeks of coming back. This is a flat out miracle. I trusted God to provide and he did. How many people can start up a business in 2 weeks. Only with the help of God. God was teaching me early on in my walk that as long as I did what He wanted me to do then I had nothing to worry about.

About 3 years saved now.

I Taught the 4 year old's at church Sunday morning for 10 years.

Left my business 2x for mission trips and God miraculously provided when I came back.

I taught 5 x a week plus held a job.

Sunday morning to the kids.
Sunday night with the 5th graders
Friday afternoons at Good News Clubs. Sponsored by Child Evangelism Fellowship.
Friday Nights with the Kids teaching through Pilgrims Progress, I did this 2x
Teaching Monday afternoons at a nursing home. I taught through the Song of Songs once then John, then Romans then back to the Song again! I love the Song of Songs.
I grew up hating God for what happened to me, and now I love Him because He first loved me. My passion is for children to grow up loving God and not hating Him.

My other passion which has become ever greater is to help others see the Love of Christ to His Church in the Song of Songs!!

I would love to help you, just let me know and I will lead you and pray for you.

God demonstrates His love to us in sending His one and only Son to suffer in our place, taking our sins upon Himself so that whoever believes they get to heaven because of what He did for us will not perish but have everlasting life.

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