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Confessing Sin 2

Confession of sin ought to be a daily, hourly and sometimes something you do for an extended amount of time.

David in Psalm 51 pours his heart out to God in confession of his sin.  David was heart to heart with God, he was a man after God’s own heart.  I want to be a man after God’s own heart.  Don’t you.   Have you ever thought about how to do that?

The best way to do that is align your heart with David’s in Psalm 51.  Meaning you are thinking and feeling like David in the Psalm when your sin is “ever before you”, then you will be a “man after God’s own heart.”

I call this owning the text.  In lesson 1, we learned how to own the 1st verse of Psalm 51.

Have mercy on me oh God, according to your steadfast love, blot out my transgressions according to your great compassion.”

Click here to learn more about verse 1.   For now lets go to verse two.

Psalm 51:2

“Wash away all my iniquity
    and cleanse me from my sin.”

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Mary Magdalene wiping jesus’ feet

It is best to keep owning the text verse by verse.  Meaning don’t just go to verse 3, 10 or 5 and memorize it and then let your heart and David’s be one.  You start with verse one overtime you come to this text when confessing sin.

Don’t say the words if you don’t mean them.  Many people just repeat the words and have no clue what they are saying.  David knew what he was saying and meant it.  If you are a believer your heart and Davids are the same, though he may be more or less mature than you, your heart and his are one to some degree.   We are to pray in spirit and in truth with a sincere heart.   How can you do that if you don’t know what you are saying.  Don’t just repeat it because David, Paul or even Jesus said it.   You can repeat it to memorize it, but if you think you are praying to God by repeating words you don’t know the true biblical meaning of then you are not praying at all according to the will of God.  Gods will for you in prayer is to pray with your understanding,  your understanding is part of your heart.  We pray from our heart in love, truth and sincerity.  Jesus loves to hear your confession of sin but hates the sin.  Go to him when feeling guilty.  He has open arms for you like the father/Father to the prodigal son.

This Psalm is here to teach us how to confess our sins, correct us if we are doing it wrong and rebuke those who know better and aren’t doing it right and to train in righteousness those who are continuing in doing it right.

Repeat this 25x.  This way you memorize it.  After memorizing then you can meditate and own the text when feeling guilty and your sin is ever before  you.

Psalm 51:1-2  

“Have mercy on me oh God, according to your steadfast love, blot out my transgressions according to your great compassion

Wash away all my iniquity
    and cleanse me from my sin.”

This should have taken you about 5 minutes.  You have to nail this truth in your head over and over again.  Drive it in there.  Write it on a card.  Text yourself.  Write it on the tablet of your heart!!   Tomorrow repeat it 10x.  The next day 5x.  The next 5x and then go to it daily to confess sin.

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Most new Christians lump Iniquity, sin, transgressions, evil etc.  There are over 20 different words for sin or evil.   Its okay to read Pslam 51 and every time you come across one of those words you have in mind whatever it was that you did that you know was evil, bad or offensive to God.  But to get a clearer understanding of all the various ways sin is utterly evil then you must understand each term to see how bad you really are so that you will hate your sin even more and repent and turn toward God.

Words to define for understanding.  Iniquity, transgressions and sin.  Transgression is a crossing the line.  That David wanted blotted out.  David had crossed the line and so have you. We deserve Gods wrath for missing the mark, crossing the line and being iniquitous.

“Have mercy on us, Oh God”

Sin is missing the mark.  There is a target God want us to hit, wether it be Glorifying Him or loving Him with all our heart or not guarding our heart.  Whatever it is, we have missed the mark.

So to own the text you think of the sin that you have ever before you and know that you have missed the mark.  You know the mark you should of hit or done or not done, but you have missed it.  You have not omitted things God wants you to omit and you have not done the things God wants you to do.

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You have sin on your record and it has stained you and made you filthy your soul is tainted with evil.  Think of your sin as dirty, something needing to be cleansed.  “cleanse me from my sin”  David says.  Does your heart agree with David then your heart is one with God and scripture through Jesus Christ.  Oh how blessed you are!!

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Sin as Crookedness or perverse: Used more than 200 times in the Old Testament as a word for sin, the Hebrew noun avon</i></a><i> </i>refers to<i> perversity, depravity, iniquity</i>. Its root is the verb <a href="http://www.blueletterbible.org/lang/lexicon/Lexicon.cfm?Strongs=H5753&amp;t=KJV"><i>avah, defined as to bend, twist, distort, or to make crooked. This reinforces two metaphors for sin mentioned above: sin makes our paths to God crooked and it also distorts and twists our nature into a contortion of what we were created to be.

David desires to have all his crookedness, perversity, and depravity to be washed away for it is twisted and distorted and his heart is bent the wrong direction.  Iniquity.  David says wash away my perversity.  Whatever sin is before you it is crooked and perverse.  Your perversity needs infinite love and grace in Christ to wash it away.  Are you feeling stained with sin.  Did your heart do evil and you need the inside clean first?

So when you repeat the words “wash away all my iniquity”  You need to have in your mind the perverse, crooked or depraved thing that you did and think of it as iniquity.  Your iniquity or perversity stains your heart.  Makes you feel dirty and desire to be cleansed.

We often hear the phrase “cleansed by the Blood of Christ”.  David knows the coming messiah will be a substitute for his sin.  The types in the OT were to illustrate that a spotless, unstained, valuable Substitute would suffer in place of the sinner.  The lamb they would sacrifice would have to die and there would be much blood surrounding the death.  Therefore blood became synonymous with the thought of  “a sin bearing substitute”.

“Wash away all my iniquity”

Your guilty conscious can become clear by believing Jesus was your sin bearing substitute.  It should have been you on the cross but sinless Jesus Christ, the Son and Lamb of God died in our place.  If you were an old testament believer you would say it like David in verse 7 “Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
    wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.”   

We would say “Cleanse me with the blood of Christ, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.”   They looked forward to Christ and we look backward, either way the OT believer and NT believer both believed in salvation by Christ alone, we just know much more about Jesus then they did.

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Another way of saying “wash me from my iniquity”  is to say clear my conscience of all this quilt, shame and sense of God’s Wrath for my sin.  Remember you are going to Psalm 51 because your sin is ever before you.  You want your conscience clear.  There are other Psalms you can go to when you are feeling guilty, shameful and sense God’s wrath because you have sinned and they are Psalms 6, 32, 38, 51, 102, 130, and 143.  You could go to those when your feeling guilty as well then when your guilt is gone go to Psalm 32.  This is how you use your Bible.  You don’t just open it up and read a verse or go through the Bible in a year plan.  Although those things are good and somewhat beneficial, going to your bible in specific times of your life and reading things specific for your situation will be the best and sweetest food for your soul.  So own Psalm 51 when your feeling guilty, shameful, disgusting, dirty, knowing you have crossed the line, missed the mark,  and sensing Gods wrath against you, you cry out…

“Have mercy on me oh God, according to your steadfast love, blot out my transgressions according to your great compassion

Wash away all my iniquity
    and cleanse me from my sin.”  Not because of any good I have done but because of Jesus dying for me is the basis by which my guilty conscience can be clear.  this is to pray in Jesus Name.  Had Jesus not died for your sins then God could not cleanse you.    Some people go on feeling guilty their whole lives.  It’s because Jesus didn’t die for them.  Had Jesus died for them, then they would believe.  Their dying in unbelief proves the blood of Christ didn’t cleanse them from guilt and shame.  These are the same people that either have their doctrines of God, Jesus and the way of salvation wrong.  If they had it right they would have a clear conscience after sincere confession and repentance.  Prove that the confession was sincere is that you will immediately take steps to change.  This is why David prayed “renew a steadfast spirit within me” 51:12.  Of course if your spirit is not renewed you will continue in the same habitual pattern of sin and usually get worse.  David’s spirit needed renewal.  Some say today we need revival.  Revival is when you turn from sin.  

Revival is when your lazy and you get up and do something for the LORD with a clear conscience.  Not moping around feeling guilty all the time.  Yes confess your sin and believe your are lovely in Christ and this will balance out your spiritual emotions.  And allow you to get back on your mare and go to battle winning with your full armor on!!

Go here for a lesson I did on balancing your spiritual emotions for maximal speed and growth in Christ alone.

David says, “wash me”  Missing the mark is a blemish on your record.  It is a sin.  Wash implies a stain.  Something is dirty.  Imagine the bride of Christ showing up in a stained dress.  Stained with the filthiness of sin.  The Bride of Christ desires to have her drew pure white and holy for she is a Virgin Bride Jer. 31:4

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Sin as Being Blemished: Ra` can also refer to blemished cattle that are unsuitable for sacrifice (for example, in Leviticus 27:10 and Deuteronomy 17:1), which offers us yet another metaphor for sin. A blemish is a mark or defect that ruins the perfection of something. Something that is blemished has been deformed in some way. Truly this is what sin has done to us: Man was made in the image of God, but that image became deformed as a result of original sin. That broken image could be repaired only through the incarnation—God became man to “reform” him.

 

Practical Application

Keep a short account with God.  Go to him as soon as you feel guilty.  As soon as your sin is before you in your mind.  When you are conscious of your failure to do what God would have wanted you to do then go to this Psalm and own it!!  Don’t put off confession or try to do good works to feel better, you will only continue in sin and probably get worse.  Quick, proper confession of sin will give you power over sin.  And don’t busy yourself doing something else like Martha, when you should be weeping at the feet of Jesus confessing your sin.

I mean when we just bump into someone we say we are sorry right then and there.  How much more so ought we to be motivated to go to God and confess when we have offended Him whom we love more than someone we bumped into at the mall.

“He who has been forgiven much will love much.” Luke 7:47

If you go to God daily and again at night and you remember all your sin.  Think of Jesus who paid for all your sin.   Think of the Hell he saved you from.  Think of Him as God, your Wise King and Savior and you love to serve Him!  If you thought of all your past sins and wrote them down and numbered them, how many are there?  Now tomorrow, think of all your sin and add it to yesterdays number.  And so on.  Each day you will have more sins you now know Jesus paid for.  You now know you have been forgive today more than what you were forgiven of yesterday, therefore you will love more.  “He who has been forgiven much loves much”

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You see one of the keys to growth is growing in love.   We grow in our love to God as we know we have been forgiven much.  So don’t forget the much sin that Jesus has died for on your behalf.  Growing in virtue and not forgetting your past sins that have been forgiven is the pathway to assurance of salvation or what Peter calls “making your calling and election sure” 2 Peter 1:3-9

At the end of the day before you go to bed.  Everybody has this time.  Give it to the Lord!! Don’t go to bed until your account with God is clear.  Jesus said when he washed Peter’s feet that we needed a daily spiritual washing!!  David was sensible of this and desired God to “wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin” 51:2.

 

Keeping a short account with God and its benefits.  David waited at least 9 months to confess his sin.  He lost the assurance/joy of his salvation due to waiting so long 51:12 and his bones were aching and God was disciplining him v. 8.  Keeping a short account with God will help make his commandment not burdensome.  Jesus said come to me all you who are weary and heavy laden with sin, guilty and shame,  come to Me all you who are poor in spirit, come to Me all you who have your sin ever before you, come to Me when you sense God is angry with you,  Come to Me for I paid the price for your sin.  Do you see that.  Jesus is saying for all you who are continuing in sin and losing the battle and it is burdening you, it feels heavy like Pilgrim’s burden.  Lay them all at the foot of the cross.  Think of the love of Jesus for you while you are broken and weeping over your sin.  Think, He loves me.  He Loves God.  God told Him to die for me and Jesus obeyed.  How beautiful is that!!  Behold this beauty and glory and it will transform you from a lukewarm Christian to one that is on fire!!   Keep a short account with God and your flame will never go out.  The heat may max and wane but the light of the knowledge of God in the face of Christ in the soul of the believer never will.

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Saved in 2000 at age 27. Nearly immediately I fell in love with the Song and grew very fast the first two years memorizing large portions of scripture purifying my mind the started chewing on meat to soon and struggled for 12 years and Christ has me on track like always but I just took the long way around and now I love leading others closer to Christ by seeing His love reflected in Solomons love for an enemy slave girl.

I have experienced God's love to me in the Song in ways that words can't express. There are many portion of the Word where she experiences extra ordinary outpouring of the Holy Spirit of God. If you have a burning desire for a close intimate relationship with God by experiencing His Love to you over and over again at greater and greater heights, depths, lengths and breaths then The Song of Songs is where you need to be.

I can help you with this process of Growing in the experience of God's love. As of 7-23-16 I have experienced everything prior to chapter 8. The Song of Song is progressive in experience. Meaning that if you are mature then you can experience the joys and extraordinary outpourings of God's Love shed abroad in your heart.

If you are not so mature then the delights in the first chapter of the Song will satisfy your thirst for experiencing the Love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Many Christian are living in sin because they do not know how to experience God's love and get hooked on Loving Him. It feels good to be loved and to love Him. His burden is not heavy and His yoke is light, Jesus said in Matt. 10:28

I believe God wants to use me to help beautify His Bride through the Song of Solomon.

If you see the book literally you will not understand nor grasp the Love God has for you. If you see the book and the verses in it relating to Christ's love to you then I would love to show you how to experience this Love to the fullest. I will pray for you daily and guide you every step of the way.

16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

I grew up going to church but was a hypocrite. I lived my life how I chose but went to church on Sunday because my family went.

Mom and Dad divorced when I was about 5.

About this time I was sexually abused by "Bob" a made up name. This incident changed my life for the worst. I had no clue how to deal with it.

As I got older I grew in my hatred for Bob. I didn't blame anyone of my family because I was to young to know any better. Some of what happened during the abuse was in a bathroom. So overtime I would use the bathroom and look at my private parts that night would replay in my mind. My hatred for Bob would continue to grow each time.

Now I know this only happened to me one night. I can't image the pain other's go through who have had this happen to them over and over. Even as I write this now I cry with many tears for those hurting. God love you even though you may not know it or feel it. Go to Him in your time of need.

I was a really bad teenager. I only cared about myself and not even my family. I always came first in my mind. Even at the expense of hurting others. I was growing in my hatred for God by now.

I was going to church and was learned that God was in control. I thought well, if God was in control then He must have let me be sexually abused. I didn't understand this, How could a good and loving God allow this. I hated Him for it. My hatred for Bob grew as well. I was still using the bathroom and memories kept coming back. My heart grew even harder for Bob and God. As far as I was concerned God would have nothing to do with my life so I lived even worse. I thought I would be in jail or dead and I really didn't care, I thought it could be much worse than reliving your painful past over and over again. Little did I know that God's plan later would be to use these events to give me a burning passion for the closest most intimate love relationship with Himself through Christ mainly through the love poem in the Song of Songs in the Bible.

I remember hating Bob so much that the only thing that would relieve my pain was actually thinking he would suffer forever for what he did. I grew so much in my hatred for him that I had to continue to think that he would get even worse than what I imaged before. After some time I would only be relieved of hatred for him unless I thought he would burn in a hotter and hotter hell for all the suffering he put me through.

I never told my mom or family what happened, although I think some of them knew something had happened.

I grew up quite rebellious and even went to jail at the age of 20. I was living the fast life pursuing all my sinful desires and wanting more. It never seemed to be enough. I was quite happy in my sin but I just wanted more of it.

I lived life thinking I would die at a young age, riding motorcycle and living on the edge put me in the hospital many times and I should have been dead.

California at age 26.

I moved to California for a job opportunity at the age of 27. While trying to figure out what radio stations to program in my car, I ran across a RC Sproul talking about "people who have the faith that saves and people who only say that have faith" only the people who have the faith that saves will go to heaven. I thought "I don't think I have the faith that saves because my life was so bad." I searched the scriptures to try to get this faith. I found a church and thought people there could help me get this faith that saves. All along God kept showing me how sinful I was and that I deserved punishment from Him for living my life hating Him.

One weekend I read Matthew, Mark, Luke and John desperately trying to find out how to get this faith that saves. By now I knew that if you had the faith that saves that Jesus would be saving you from a life of sin. I still liked my sin and Jesus sure wasn't saving me from a life of sin, so I rightly concluded that I didn't have the faith that saves.

By the time I got to John, I saw "believe" everywhere. John 3:16 and other verses and wow the whole book was written so that you may believe. John 20:31 "these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name." So at night I would pray "I believe Jesus died for me, I believe, I believe. This was just an intellectual belief. I knew that in history and the Bible that Jesus died for everyone, so I believed it. But this belief did not change my life.

I would go on night after night saying the same prayer only to wake up the next day wanting to fulfill my sinful desires. The prayer wasn't working so I started to word it different each time hoping some prayer would work. After about 2 weeks of this I was fed up with it all, nothing was happening. I still was living in my sin and wanted more of it. A Christian hates their sin and does something about it, and certainly they don't continue to make plans to sin. The prayers weren't working so I gave up. I thought to myself "God, I tried with all my might, I searched the Scriptures, went to church, read the Bible and prayed all to no avail. If Im going to be saved your going to have to do it because I tried."

So I quit praying but still the Bible kept calling me so I read more. 3 Days later I was laying in a tanning bed and God convicted me really hard that I had offended Him by the life I was living. I was so scared of God, where could I run. You can't hide from God. It seemed like forever that I was under these terrors of being punished by a Holy Angry God. This lasted about 10 minutes then this is how I understood it. God let me understand that all that anger that He had for me for all my sin should come my way but He had poured that anger out on Jesus 2,000 years ago. I immediately started weeping an couldn't stop for about 20 minutes. All the sins that I could think of I confessed for that 20 minutes one after another after another, I was so sorrowful and grieved it physically hurt inside.

After I stopped crying I thought that was the weirdest thing that ever happened. I walked out of the tanning salon and stood outside and everything seemed so beautiful, the tree's, the birds, even the air seemed pleasant. Now I was really wondering what was going on.

I pondered all of this as I drove to work that day. I brought my Bible to work and was thinking what am I doing, I want to take my Bible to work so I can read it. As soon as I got to work I started reading my Bible. I couldn't believe what I was reading!! It all was so wonderful. It felt so good to just read my Bible. My client showed up and as I was training them the only thing I could think about was getting back to my Bible. I read all night and slept about 2 hours and was reading again.

I had sinful things in my apartment and I rounded everything evil up and threw it in the garbage. It was weird I was thinking but it felt good so I left it all in the garbage. I called my girlfriend to break it up and she thought I had another girl, I said no, I just think this is wrong we shouldn't be sleeping together. She didn't understand so I told her I was a Christian now and she still thought I had another girlfriend. She said "Im glad your a Christian, so am I" I thought to myself, "I have a strong conviction that sleeping together is wrong and she thought it was okay" I wondered how she could think that. Anyway we broke up.

I kept reading my bible and repenting, there was so much to repent of and I had lived a very sinful life. I was a thief for some part of my life and all the people I stole from kept coming to mind. I owed so much money. I was instantly in debt about $80,000. As I could I paid them back. As of 7-18-2016 I still owe about $25,000 but it sure is a joy to be paying them back.

The first week of being saved a car just about ran me over, they hit me but I wasn't hurt at all. The guy in the car felt so bad. I just looked at him and said "God bless you and have a great day, I am okay" smiled at him and moved on. Now I was really wondering what was going on because I normally would have cussed him out left and right and instead of cussing I blessed him. That was so weird. But again it felt good. I learned to do good by what my conscience told me was good and that it felt good. I got hooked on this feeling good by doing good and did it more often.

About two weeks after being saved I thought of Bob. I immediately prayed for him, something like "Lord help him.." then I stopped praying and said out loud "What am I doing?" I'm praying for a man that I hated my whole life, but it feels good and right, so I did it again. I stopped again midway in the prayer and started pacing around. I was trying to make sense of what was going on and couldn't figure it out. But again it made me happy to pray for him so I did. Bob would often come to mind when I went to the bathroom and each time I would pray for Him. The more I did this the less weird it got. And the greater my love grew for him.

I started memorizing large portions of scripture and this was wonderful because it felt like the words were cleaning my mind and as Proverbs 2:10 "For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul." I wanted more and more of this pleasantness. So I memorized even more and the joy got more and more.

Then this life changing advice came:

A friend from church told me to find a book of the Bible and really understand it. Read through the Bible and pick one and read it over and over and study it and really get it. So I started in Genesis and read through. When I got to Proverbs I really liked it so I thought that would be the book. I started by memorizing all of Proverbs chapter 3. After that I thought maybe there is a better book than Proverbs. So I read on. Then I came to Song of Solomon. I read it with quite some confusion. It wasn't as good as the other books, I didn't know why. So I bought a commentary on it. George Burrowes commentary on the Song of Solomon.

In the commentary I found that George and other saw the book as illustrating God's love to the Church. And not only illustrating it but displaying the Love of Christ better than any other book. This caught my attention big time, because I was having a burning desire for a closer relationship with God and desperately learning about His Love so that I could Love God. You see I had hated Him for so long that God used that old hard heart to spur me on in loving Him. I so much did not want to hate God anymore that I was on fire to learn to Love Him as much and as fast as possible. So here was a book that would help me do that. So I landed on the Song of Solomon. I committed to learning as much of this book as possible.

I memorized the first chapter and would repeat it often throughout the day. I didn't know much of what I was repeating but it sure made me happier and on fire for God. I grew so fast repeating the first chapter over and over again all day, like a dozen times a day at least. It felt so good and I never found any other book that caused me to weep so much. I would often weep everyday just reading it. I was to immature to know what was going on. Even though it hurt to weep so much, I felt like my heart was being cleansed from the filth that was in it by repeating it over and over again so I did. As I read the commentary I understood more and more. What God was doing in me through the Song was greater and faster than any other portion of Scripture so I tended to stay there often. I was so excited about God that I thought it funny that other's in church weren't the same way. Some where happy but it seemed most of them didn't seem to care much about God. They would talk about work, football the weather. The only thing I wanted to talk about was Jesus and God and how can I grow closer to Him.

About this time there was a mission trip to Ireland.

I started to have convictions that I should try to find Bob and witness to him. I kept praying for him but how could he be saved if he hadn't heard the Gospel that has power unto salvation. So I asked family if they had any information. Like me before, my family hated him and thought he deserved hell. After some time I got his name but no location or phone number. Either they didn't know where he was or didn't want to tell me. I prayed some more and then started to get stronger convictions to do something about finding Bob.

So I went on the internet and typed in "his name and child molestation sex offender court" thinking that some court record would have some info leading to where I may find him" I even talked to a private eye and he couldn't help. So I googled some key words and spent hours each day looking through each page. I believed it was God's will for me to witness to Bob. I wanted him to be saved. Really bad. So much so that I thought God would save Bob if I were to witness to him. So I didn't stop searching for him. I kept my computer on each day and went page by page. It took two years to go through about 15,000 pages but I found someone who matched his name in a prison for molesting his grandchildren. I wrote the prison and he wrote back. All kinds of emotions went through my body when I saw his letter from the jail. I didn't open it right away but two hours later God gave me enough courage to face my fears again and I opened the letter. He admitted to being the one who molested me. We wrote back and forth I told him I was angry before but now I was saved and that I loved him and believed God wanted me to talk to him. He read my letters over and over again. I shared the gospel in each one.

I got mad at Bob 2x. Once he said that he love me. I got really angry with him. He didn't love me. That night it was hard to love Bob, I had to call a friend to pray for me to repent, after he prayed I felt greater love for Bob. Then I wrote him back saying "I'm sorry but you can't say that you loved me. You did not love me you lusted after me." He admitted he didn't love as he should have and admitted that it was lust and sinful. Finally some conviction. Yet I only thought he was saying that because I was being nice to him. All his family had left him and he said I was the only "friend" he had.

Wether or not it was true Bob said that he had cancer in his arm and that the help the prison gives was not enough and if he had money he could see a different doctor and get help. I sent him some money and since I was in jail before I knew what it was like to be in there without money, so I sent him money.

About 4-5 months in the economy went down, it was 2008. Work was hard. I still sent him money and I had to work harder. This was a really good lesson for me because I had to "work hard for the benefit of someone who did not deserve it." This was one of the greatest blessing ever because I realized with great certainty that Jesus was in me. This is what Jesus did. Jesus worked his whole life for me and I didn't deserve it!! Christ was in me! This was one of the best feelings ever and it put me in worship for months.

Then a mission trip to Croatia.

Each time I had to leave my business and amazing as it is I was completely okay each time. I am a self employed personal trainer and it is normally absurd to just leave and start over, but each time I had enough work within 2 weeks of coming back. This is a flat out miracle. I trusted God to provide and he did. How many people can start up a business in 2 weeks. Only with the help of God. God was teaching me early on in my walk that as long as I did what He wanted me to do then I had nothing to worry about.

About 3 years saved now.

I Taught the 4 year old's at church Sunday morning for 10 years.

Left my business 2x for mission trips and God miraculously provided when I came back.

I taught 5 x a week plus held a job.

Sunday morning to the kids.
Sunday night with the 5th graders
Friday afternoons at Good News Clubs. Sponsored by Child Evangelism Fellowship.
Friday Nights with the Kids teaching through Pilgrims Progress, I did this 2x
Teaching Monday afternoons at a nursing home. I taught through the Song of Songs once then John, then Romans then back to the Song again! I love the Song of Songs.
I grew up hating God for what happened to me, and now I love Him because He first loved me. My passion is for children to grow up loving God and not hating Him.

My other passion which has become ever greater is to help others see the Love of Christ to His Church in the Song of Songs!!

I would love to help you, just let me know and I will lead you and pray for you.

God demonstrates His love to us in sending His one and only Son to suffer in our place, taking our sins upon Himself so that whoever believes they get to heaven because of what He did for us will not perish but have everlasting life.

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